A little about me: I am 25 years old, female, recently married, and have a Masters of Health Administration and a BS in Biology. I live in a moderately large city where I own 2 properties and am building a business with my husband. Our incomes combined are ~$110,000, although I'm not sure if my employment will continue after October because it is grant funded. After finishing grad school, I started working at a hospital under a grant funded position and decided to try my hand at applying to medical school. All through 2011, I studied for the MCAT. I got the score I needed. I applied to one (and only one) medical school and was accepted. I thought that was perfect because school would start in August and I was going to be "losing" my job in October anyway. In many ways, I am extremely blessed. Both my husband and I come from extremely abusive and poor backgrounds, so we know how lucky we are in building our success and in me being offered an opportunity to attend medical school.
The problem is, I'm not 100% I want to go. Even when I was applying, I had the attitude of "it if happens, it happens." I felt very calm. When I got accepted, I was excited, but not over the moon. I really need some advice about what to do. I DON'T NEED OR WANT snarky or immature comments.
The reasons I am unsure about going are the time and financial commitments. If we keep going to way we are going, there's a good chance our business could be self-sustaining in a few years and both my husband and I could quit 'traditional' employment and work for ourselves. I would be able to have children easily. If I go to medical school, not only do we start losing money to tuition, but we lose my time/efforts dedicated to the business. Medical school doesn't scare me as much as residency - I just have no desire whatsoever to be 30,31,32 years old and working 80 hours a week and postponing children and time with my husband. It boils down to three things: freedom, time, and money. I want to be a doctor, but I don't want that to be the ONLY thing in my life. Right now I am an employee, a small business owner, a wife, and a friend. I feel like medical school/residency would be so consuming I would only be "medicine." I feel like if I knew the time commitments would be reasonable (say 50 hours a week), I would be all on-board for wanting to do medical school.
What do you all think? I talk about this every night with my husband and we aren't coming to any conclusions, so I'm coming to you guys for ideas, inspiration, and advice.