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Hi everyone,
So I've been on a surgery rotation for a while now (but it's my first clinical year) and I've really enjoyed it so far - it has led me to think that I'd like to do something surgical in the future as a career path (didn't like general med very much). I've been spending a bit of time in theatre just watching, and never really felt squeamish.
Then today I was hanging around outside hoping to go in and watch, but the surgeon asked if I wanted to scrub in and assist. So I agreed even though I didn't really feel prepared and I was quite terrified. It's all going fine but next minute, there I am holding the incision open, and all of a sudden I have this moment of like "oh f*** what the f*** am I doing" and I started to feel light headed. Didn't really want to pass out into the sterile field so I acted early and told them that I needed to step out.
I put it down to how anxious I felt. Don't know if this is normal. I wasn't that grossed out I don't think. I don't have an issue with the smell of the diathermy, and I had eaten not too long before. Maybe I hadn't had enough water.
Anyway I was pretty embarrassed and I'm a bit disheartened that I should forget about wanting to do anything surgical. I've had this issue before - nearly fainted while watching suturing under local anaesthetic twice (don't cope well with seeing people in pain). But then I did an excision biopsy and stitched it up with no problem and never felt faint with cadavers. So not really sure what the issue is?
Is this the kind of thing you get used to?
So I've been on a surgery rotation for a while now (but it's my first clinical year) and I've really enjoyed it so far - it has led me to think that I'd like to do something surgical in the future as a career path (didn't like general med very much). I've been spending a bit of time in theatre just watching, and never really felt squeamish.
Then today I was hanging around outside hoping to go in and watch, but the surgeon asked if I wanted to scrub in and assist. So I agreed even though I didn't really feel prepared and I was quite terrified. It's all going fine but next minute, there I am holding the incision open, and all of a sudden I have this moment of like "oh f*** what the f*** am I doing" and I started to feel light headed. Didn't really want to pass out into the sterile field so I acted early and told them that I needed to step out.
I put it down to how anxious I felt. Don't know if this is normal. I wasn't that grossed out I don't think. I don't have an issue with the smell of the diathermy, and I had eaten not too long before. Maybe I hadn't had enough water.
Anyway I was pretty embarrassed and I'm a bit disheartened that I should forget about wanting to do anything surgical. I've had this issue before - nearly fainted while watching suturing under local anaesthetic twice (don't cope well with seeing people in pain). But then I did an excision biopsy and stitched it up with no problem and never felt faint with cadavers. So not really sure what the issue is?
Is this the kind of thing you get used to?