Hey everyone,
I am a CA-1, in the midst of my second month doing anesthesia, and I'm getting concerned that I may have made the wrong career choice. I guess what bothers me most is feeling like I'm in a factory. I get to the hospital at 6, set up the room, preop the first case then it's go go go with no time for breaks in between. I often leave around 5 pm with a total of 45 min break (15 min in the morning and 30 min for lunch). I guess this wouldn't be so bad if I absolutely LOVED what I'm doing, but honestly I'm only in my second month and already feeling like I'm in a rut. A lot of my co-residents on the other hand are having a ball, and I wish I shared their enthusiasm. My program is great (top tier program on the east coast) faculty are amazing, co residents easy to get along with, no issues with surgery attendings or OR staff. I don't feel overwhelmed or inadequate, and attendings have given me positive feedback. Its just that I'm not really enjoying the day to day grind of anesthesia, and I'm worried about feeling this way already. The OR is starting to feel like a prison, making me yearn for the good ol intern days.
Has anyone ever felt this way and then grew to love it?
Btw it's really not my thing to go to an anonymous forum, but I don't want to ask my co-residents/faculty because I don't want anyone in the department to think I'm unhappy or ungrateful. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
I am a CA-1, in the midst of my second month doing anesthesia, and I'm getting concerned that I may have made the wrong career choice. I guess what bothers me most is feeling like I'm in a factory. I get to the hospital at 6, set up the room, preop the first case then it's go go go with no time for breaks in between. I often leave around 5 pm with a total of 45 min break (15 min in the morning and 30 min for lunch). I guess this wouldn't be so bad if I absolutely LOVED what I'm doing, but honestly I'm only in my second month and already feeling like I'm in a rut. A lot of my co-residents on the other hand are having a ball, and I wish I shared their enthusiasm. My program is great (top tier program on the east coast) faculty are amazing, co residents easy to get along with, no issues with surgery attendings or OR staff. I don't feel overwhelmed or inadequate, and attendings have given me positive feedback. Its just that I'm not really enjoying the day to day grind of anesthesia, and I'm worried about feeling this way already. The OR is starting to feel like a prison, making me yearn for the good ol intern days.
Has anyone ever felt this way and then grew to love it?
Btw it's really not my thing to go to an anonymous forum, but I don't want to ask my co-residents/faculty because I don't want anyone in the department to think I'm unhappy or ungrateful. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!