I am having a mild case of cold feet. Don't get me wrong, I still know I am going, and I want to go, but now I am having these random thoughts like 'will I be able to keep up after being out of school for so long?' and 'do I really want to see my husband 2x a month at the most, again?' and finally 'I really dread the actual move.
I know a lot of it, for me, is the move, again. Since 2005 I have moved homes 7 times, with 4 of those across state lines, and almost all of them changes of city/employment/etc. I was working in my garden yesterday and realized I won't be home for a good part of harvest. I also realized that when hubby and I thought I wasn't getting in, we we talking about starting our family, which will have to be delayed. Also, not all my pets can go with me, and the schedule will limit our ability to travel, including visiting family.
I also, now that I am faced with the options, am not sure what area of vet med I want to pursue. In an ideal world, it would be zoo med, but not sure I want to deal with limited job opportunities and relocating for the opportunities. Mixed animal in a rural setting appeals to my upbringing, my desire for independence, and the types of places I want to raise a family, satisfied my entrepreneurial spirit, but the income is somewhat restricted. I am also interested in population medicine/research, but a bit concerned about limiting myself to govt employment. My actually background pushes me towards vet behaviorist, but I don't know that anything other than a city center could support one. Anyone else struggling with the 'what I want to be' portion?
I know once I move and such, I will be fine, but right now I keep experiencing the sensation of 'I'll have to give this part of my life up' a lot right now.