Hey Coastie. No worries. It gets better. Here are a couple statements off the top of my head:
- Residency is tough. Try and enjoy it. Learn as much as you can.
- Stay under the radar. You wanna be that guy who is really good at what he does but is not stirring up the mud. I had a confrontation with a CRNA early in my residency. What I learned: Attendings>CRNA>Residents. You will be suprised at who really has your back in residency (your fellow residents). You are more replaceable than a CRNA and they know it.
- Don't worry about the future. You chose a fantastic specialty.
- The other side of the tunnel is dramatically better. In fact, it is night and day. You will be doing amazing things both inside and outside of the hospital. But to fully taste it, you have to put your time in the s hit hole so you can know the difference.
Lastly, work in an MD only practice to start off with. You don't want to supervise a CRNA that has been doing it for 15 years and thinks they know more than you. At least I didnt. That is for later, once you have learned to land a plane that is crashing and burning.... Solo. It will give you confidance handling life and death decisions when you are the only anesthesia provider in the hospital.
Good luck Home-E.
Let me guess, Johnson? I believe his first name was Dick?