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So I was dismissed from my school one rotation short of completing 3rd year. It's a super complicated situation, and let's just say that I had a lot of difficulty in medical school related to ADHD, which had gone undiagnosed my entire life until the summer between 1st and 2nd year. I did pass Step 1 on first try, but just barely. I had a bunch of conditional passes in my 3rd year clerkships and also received a couple professionalism evals related to tardiness and trouble handing in assignments, things related to my ADHD, as well as depression that was probably caused by one of the meds I took for ADHD.
At this time, I decided to take 8 months off to get over my depression and to really work my behaviors out. I had to sit before the academic standing committee for a dismissal hearing prior to starting up again, and they decided that I could stay but made me repeat almost the entire 3rd year. My repeat started out well in Family Med and ObGyn, but I had a setback during my Medicine rotation. There was a requirement that was not well described in the course literature, and the clerkship director gave me no leeway to fulfill this requirement (as others had been given, as it was an unclear requirement); I had also been late a few times, but my team never got on me about it (they mentioned that it was something I needed to work on, but that I communicated well and it never became a "problem" per se). The clerkship director gave me a conditional pass, and wrote a professionalism eval stating that I "could not be trusted to complete tasks, did not seek help appropriately, and was tardy despite frequent reminders." I realized I had to iron out these problems, so I got an apartment closer to the hospital and saw my psychiatrist, who thought I had developed a tolerance to the stimulant meds and adjusted them accordingly. This was exactly what I needed, and with my next clerkship (Surgery) I did fantastically. However, the previous grade and professionalism eval prompted another dismissal hearing.
At this hearing, I brought huge supporters, including the Surgery clerkship director who had written the first two professionalism evals, as she was so impressed with my improvements (on that recent Surgery rotation). I also had my Medicine attending write a letter (he couldnt be there), another Medicine attending who knew me well, and a Medicine resident who worked with me to comment on the severity of the issues raised. Unfortunately, the Medicine clerkship director is also the chairman of the Academic Standing Committee, and yes, he was there despite my concerns. After a closed deliberation, the ASC voted 11-2 in favor of dismissal simply on the technical grounds that I met to prompt the hearing - no further explanation was given.
I decided to appeal to the Dean, as this was the last step. I drafted a five page memo (while starting Pediatrics, and I continued to do really well). I had my supporters and my psychiatrist draft very strong letters, and I provided my Surgery grade and evals (which was now completed) and my preliminary Peds evals. The Dean and I had what I thought was a pretty good conversation, and he told me that given the info he needed to take some more time than usual to make a decision. Eleven days later, he called me to tell me that he agreed with the decision, with no further explanation, yet he had not asked me a single question for clarification or concern despite requests, nor had he contacted my psychiatrist or any of my supporters during that time.
So that's where I am now - dismissed from medical school, with a mountain of debt and nothing to show for it. The real tragedy is that I have all of this training, and I feel like I'm in a fantastic place as far as my behaviors - it took five years to undo much of the 23 prior to diagnosis, but I finally got there, and now they're letting me go. I feel like they should have worked with me just a little bit more, given all that I had done and how hard I had worked, how much the school and I had both invested, but they just kicked me to the curb. I feel like any US med school would be out of the question, and I'm not sure about off-shore med schools but am considering it (though there seem to be issues there too). Anyone been through this? Anyone have any advice for me?
At this time, I decided to take 8 months off to get over my depression and to really work my behaviors out. I had to sit before the academic standing committee for a dismissal hearing prior to starting up again, and they decided that I could stay but made me repeat almost the entire 3rd year. My repeat started out well in Family Med and ObGyn, but I had a setback during my Medicine rotation. There was a requirement that was not well described in the course literature, and the clerkship director gave me no leeway to fulfill this requirement (as others had been given, as it was an unclear requirement); I had also been late a few times, but my team never got on me about it (they mentioned that it was something I needed to work on, but that I communicated well and it never became a "problem" per se). The clerkship director gave me a conditional pass, and wrote a professionalism eval stating that I "could not be trusted to complete tasks, did not seek help appropriately, and was tardy despite frequent reminders." I realized I had to iron out these problems, so I got an apartment closer to the hospital and saw my psychiatrist, who thought I had developed a tolerance to the stimulant meds and adjusted them accordingly. This was exactly what I needed, and with my next clerkship (Surgery) I did fantastically. However, the previous grade and professionalism eval prompted another dismissal hearing.
At this hearing, I brought huge supporters, including the Surgery clerkship director who had written the first two professionalism evals, as she was so impressed with my improvements (on that recent Surgery rotation). I also had my Medicine attending write a letter (he couldnt be there), another Medicine attending who knew me well, and a Medicine resident who worked with me to comment on the severity of the issues raised. Unfortunately, the Medicine clerkship director is also the chairman of the Academic Standing Committee, and yes, he was there despite my concerns. After a closed deliberation, the ASC voted 11-2 in favor of dismissal simply on the technical grounds that I met to prompt the hearing - no further explanation was given.
I decided to appeal to the Dean, as this was the last step. I drafted a five page memo (while starting Pediatrics, and I continued to do really well). I had my supporters and my psychiatrist draft very strong letters, and I provided my Surgery grade and evals (which was now completed) and my preliminary Peds evals. The Dean and I had what I thought was a pretty good conversation, and he told me that given the info he needed to take some more time than usual to make a decision. Eleven days later, he called me to tell me that he agreed with the decision, with no further explanation, yet he had not asked me a single question for clarification or concern despite requests, nor had he contacted my psychiatrist or any of my supporters during that time.
So that's where I am now - dismissed from medical school, with a mountain of debt and nothing to show for it. The real tragedy is that I have all of this training, and I feel like I'm in a fantastic place as far as my behaviors - it took five years to undo much of the 23 prior to diagnosis, but I finally got there, and now they're letting me go. I feel like they should have worked with me just a little bit more, given all that I had done and how hard I had worked, how much the school and I had both invested, but they just kicked me to the curb. I feel like any US med school would be out of the question, and I'm not sure about off-shore med schools but am considering it (though there seem to be issues there too). Anyone been through this? Anyone have any advice for me?