I'm half-way through an away rotation and things have been going really well so far, I've had great feedback and evaluations and my mid-term meeting was really positive. Today I had a shift (in a low-acutuity part of the ED) where I was trying SO hard to be on top of things, help out, jump into cases, be proactive, and at the end of the shift the attending pretty much told me I was horrible. I was shocked, and freaked out, and I've completely lost my mojo. I'm terrified this one shift might destroy me, not only for this rotation, but because I need this away rotation for a SLOE. (I was told I should smile more to seem more interested--that I wasn't "sufficiently acting like a cheerleader" and to "tighten" my presentations, even though every time I tried to see a new patient and asked to present them, the attending or resident would say "Nah, I'm going to see them anyway")
I was really shocked by the feedback today because it was SO different from the positive feedback I've received on every shift so far, and don't know what to do to salvage this. Do I ignore it (half of my evaluators don't turn in evals anyway), do I go to the program director and tell them I had a shift that was a bit off and received some feedback that I wasn't expecting...I probably won't work with this person again, it seems like I'm with someone new every shift (which makes it hard to really adjust because everyone is different).
I feel totally defeated right now, like all of my effort and enthusiasm, and time spend genuinely trying to do my best was a total waste and that my life is ruined and I've destroyed the entire away rotation because of one day. I know that seems like an exaggeration, but when an attending tells you as a visiting student that they are unimpressed and disappointed with you, you kind of want to die.
Ugh- what do I do now?
I was really shocked by the feedback today because it was SO different from the positive feedback I've received on every shift so far, and don't know what to do to salvage this. Do I ignore it (half of my evaluators don't turn in evals anyway), do I go to the program director and tell them I had a shift that was a bit off and received some feedback that I wasn't expecting...I probably won't work with this person again, it seems like I'm with someone new every shift (which makes it hard to really adjust because everyone is different).
I feel totally defeated right now, like all of my effort and enthusiasm, and time spend genuinely trying to do my best was a total waste and that my life is ruined and I've destroyed the entire away rotation because of one day. I know that seems like an exaggeration, but when an attending tells you as a visiting student that they are unimpressed and disappointed with you, you kind of want to die.
Ugh- what do I do now?