Long story short, I have a terrible fear of the MCAT based on my previous track record on standardized exams.
I am currently a RN. I graduated #10 in my class in an all girl catholic high school, attended a private catholic university in NY and graduated with a (3.76 cGPA) while working full-time, attended law school on a full-ride but decided to leave after a year because I wasn't about that struggling attorney life (the law school I attended was not tier 1), I took all my prereqs for medical school at cc (sGPA 3.79) [I was working full-time and cc accommodated my schedule, I feared I would bombed the MCAT so I didn't take it even after paying $2000 for a Princeton review course], I subsequently enrolled in an ABSN program at a state school, I finished with a (3.82 cGPA). I was also concurrently working 30 hrs while in nursing school.
Although I have always done well academically I have always performed poorly on standardized exams. Thus I have an unwavering fear of the MCAT. I'll open a page to study and I'm immediately consumed with thoughts about how "I am wasting my time because I will never do well." It's so frustrating because I actually believe what I am saying to myself. I want to be a doctor but I simply cannot get passed the MCAT. Moreover, now that I'm actually thinking of tackling this beast, I would now have to repeat Orgo, and Physics because it has been 5 years since I originally took those classes and I feel like I don't remember enough to do well on the MCAT and the physics/orgo cc courses I took were inadequate. If accepted into medical school I would not be too concerned about the USMLE because I feel that, that is more content-driven and less trickery. Moreover, I know two people who did VERY poorly on the MCAT and went on to do very well on the USMLE (although their performance is not an indicator of my personal performance).
I'm from NJ but I am currently living and working in Texas. Has anyone been in a similar situation? Should I just give up and pursue my back-up plan, Pharmacy (nursing does not suit my personality)? I feel so defeated but I would like the truth. I will be 28 in August and feel like such a fail .
I am currently a RN. I graduated #10 in my class in an all girl catholic high school, attended a private catholic university in NY and graduated with a (3.76 cGPA) while working full-time, attended law school on a full-ride but decided to leave after a year because I wasn't about that struggling attorney life (the law school I attended was not tier 1), I took all my prereqs for medical school at cc (sGPA 3.79) [I was working full-time and cc accommodated my schedule, I feared I would bombed the MCAT so I didn't take it even after paying $2000 for a Princeton review course], I subsequently enrolled in an ABSN program at a state school, I finished with a (3.82 cGPA). I was also concurrently working 30 hrs while in nursing school.
Although I have always done well academically I have always performed poorly on standardized exams. Thus I have an unwavering fear of the MCAT. I'll open a page to study and I'm immediately consumed with thoughts about how "I am wasting my time because I will never do well." It's so frustrating because I actually believe what I am saying to myself. I want to be a doctor but I simply cannot get passed the MCAT. Moreover, now that I'm actually thinking of tackling this beast, I would now have to repeat Orgo, and Physics because it has been 5 years since I originally took those classes and I feel like I don't remember enough to do well on the MCAT and the physics/orgo cc courses I took were inadequate. If accepted into medical school I would not be too concerned about the USMLE because I feel that, that is more content-driven and less trickery. Moreover, I know two people who did VERY poorly on the MCAT and went on to do very well on the USMLE (although their performance is not an indicator of my personal performance).
I'm from NJ but I am currently living and working in Texas. Has anyone been in a similar situation? Should I just give up and pursue my back-up plan, Pharmacy (nursing does not suit my personality)? I feel so defeated but I would like the truth. I will be 28 in August and feel like such a fail .