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I have never entertained the thought of me being a stupid person until I began this general chemistry course, and the reality that it can only get more challenging from here is beginning to terrify me and turn me into an anxious wreck. My undergraduate GPA was a 3.92, but I was an English major and didn't take much science or math. I didn't think it would be virtually impossible for me to grasp science and math concepts, though. I've always had a lot of confidence in my ability to figure things out (especially things that your average 18 year old can figure out) until now.
I'm not sure if it's that I lack the proper foundation or that I'm just really not as smart as I once thought I was, but there is something about chemistry that I just cannot wrap my head around no matter how much time I spend with my notes and the textbook. I see a reaction formula, and my brain proceeds to basically shut down. I see terms like "acid" or "metal hydroxide," and I panic and just start writing down random element symbols and numbers and hoping for the best. I can't seem to get the terminology, nor the overall picture in terms of what the electrons are doing, sorted out in my head.
The weird thing is that I'm making an A in the class. This is more a function of my ability to figure out how to crack the professor's exams than it is an indicator of my actual understanding of the subject, though. I seem to be pretty good at selecting the right answer even if I don't fully understand the question. As for Mastering Chemistry homework, I've Googled a lot of answers. In lab, my partner is a chemistry buff who took AP in high school and allows me to copy his answers when I have no clue what in the world is going on. Otherwise, I probably would have failed most of my labs.
I'm concerned that, although I may come out in the end with an A, general chemistry is just going to continue to haunt me in the future, both in terms of how I'll perform in gen chem II and in terms of the MCAT.
Should I figure out something to do with myself? I feel like there's no way I can continue to delude myself that I'm fit to be a doctor when the world is full of people who major in chemistry, not to mention things like astrophysics and neuroscience, and meanwhile here I am struggling to comprehend watered down chemistry.
I'm not sure if it's that I lack the proper foundation or that I'm just really not as smart as I once thought I was, but there is something about chemistry that I just cannot wrap my head around no matter how much time I spend with my notes and the textbook. I see a reaction formula, and my brain proceeds to basically shut down. I see terms like "acid" or "metal hydroxide," and I panic and just start writing down random element symbols and numbers and hoping for the best. I can't seem to get the terminology, nor the overall picture in terms of what the electrons are doing, sorted out in my head.
The weird thing is that I'm making an A in the class. This is more a function of my ability to figure out how to crack the professor's exams than it is an indicator of my actual understanding of the subject, though. I seem to be pretty good at selecting the right answer even if I don't fully understand the question. As for Mastering Chemistry homework, I've Googled a lot of answers. In lab, my partner is a chemistry buff who took AP in high school and allows me to copy his answers when I have no clue what in the world is going on. Otherwise, I probably would have failed most of my labs.
I'm concerned that, although I may come out in the end with an A, general chemistry is just going to continue to haunt me in the future, both in terms of how I'll perform in gen chem II and in terms of the MCAT.
Should I figure out something to do with myself? I feel like there's no way I can continue to delude myself that I'm fit to be a doctor when the world is full of people who major in chemistry, not to mention things like astrophysics and neuroscience, and meanwhile here I am struggling to comprehend watered down chemistry.
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