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Hi I have made some posts here in the past regarding my health conditions. Now a year has passed, and my health has worsened. I already had multiple hospitalizations, and my care providers and I are contemplating about med board. So long story short, shortly before starting residency, I was hospitalized for septic shock. I almost died. I had pulmonary edema and was intubated for a week, had AKI, and was in the ICU for two weeks. Before this, I was a model student, and graduated med school at the top quartile of my class. I never had problems.
I forced myself to come back to work but I was in no shape or form capable. I was weak, fatigued, and easily got sick from patients. However, I started residency on time because I had military orders. I started having debilitating chronic almost daily migraines, and barely able to function. I tried to get a leave of absence but was discouraged from doing so.
My body continued to deteriorate. In November, I was admitted for severe abdominal pain, which turned out to be erosive gastritis. Likely stress related. I took two weeks off. I came back working, and around March, my case of depression got worse. I'm still suffering from headaches and I was in pain everyday and my chronic pain and sense of helplessness fueled my depression. I started having suicidal ideation, and was told by Chiefs to go the the ER. I was placed in inpatient psychiatry for a week and was discharged with Prozac and got a week off. I came back and tried really hard but I was in pain, still depressed. Now recently have bladder issues and pelvic pain, and was diagnosed with endometriosis based on endometriomas seen on imaging. I just got out of the ER for urinary issues and they think I have instertial cystitis.
Now I'm just so fed up and I can't see myself practicing with all these problems medically. My question is if I get med boarded is there a possibility that they will still find me fit for duty? Also, I have an HPSP scholarship. Do I have to pay them back if I get med boarded? I know I need to talk to a military lawyer and that's what I'm heading to. I just can't do this anymore. I need to stop torturing myself. All my relationships are suffering. I'm suffering.
I forced myself to come back to work but I was in no shape or form capable. I was weak, fatigued, and easily got sick from patients. However, I started residency on time because I had military orders. I started having debilitating chronic almost daily migraines, and barely able to function. I tried to get a leave of absence but was discouraged from doing so.
My body continued to deteriorate. In November, I was admitted for severe abdominal pain, which turned out to be erosive gastritis. Likely stress related. I took two weeks off. I came back working, and around March, my case of depression got worse. I'm still suffering from headaches and I was in pain everyday and my chronic pain and sense of helplessness fueled my depression. I started having suicidal ideation, and was told by Chiefs to go the the ER. I was placed in inpatient psychiatry for a week and was discharged with Prozac and got a week off. I came back and tried really hard but I was in pain, still depressed. Now recently have bladder issues and pelvic pain, and was diagnosed with endometriosis based on endometriomas seen on imaging. I just got out of the ER for urinary issues and they think I have instertial cystitis.
Now I'm just so fed up and I can't see myself practicing with all these problems medically. My question is if I get med boarded is there a possibility that they will still find me fit for duty? Also, I have an HPSP scholarship. Do I have to pay them back if I get med boarded? I know I need to talk to a military lawyer and that's what I'm heading to. I just can't do this anymore. I need to stop torturing myself. All my relationships are suffering. I'm suffering.
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