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Long story short, I dragged my Step 1 study much longer than I should have, mostly because I was anxious about the test and wanted to get my dream score. I studied 15 hours/day for straight 11 weeks without any breaks. After the test, despite some break time, I still became so burned out that I started to lose all purposes in life. I started to feel lost and don't know why I'm doing what I'm doing. It's been a few weeks into my research, but I have no motivation and energy going forward at all. I'm working for a bright and highly motivated PI whose lab is relatively young. I know my PI has a lot expectation in me that I hit the ground running hard and help advance the project forward fast. Apparently with my current state, I'm not reciprocating my PI's expectation. I haven't talked to my PI or my program director about this yet because I'm afraid I will look like a liability that's full of drama to them, given that they had already allowed me to postpone my research for extra time to study. But at the same time, I just don't know what to do now. I still like science and still want to finish my MD/PhD training, but at the moment I've just lost all purposes in life. Have any of you experienced this and what advices would you have for me ?