Thank you. balancing all these responsibilities is really trying with med schools and the hole premed process is really difficult and all I seem to h...ear is "good is not good enough". I managed to do well in college after doing really poorly in high school and working to deal with lack of study techniques, focusing issues, and time management issues - that wasn't good enough "you need a 3.6 gpa or higher", I pushed myself even harder to achieve that, started being able to do well in courses and actually get consistent good grades for the first time in my life, and "that wasn't good enough you need e.c.s, research, publishing looks good and I also wanted to be able to research" - I got research and worked towards being published, did non-profit work, got a job and it was hard to balance my grades and I had to withdraw from classes for a quarter and take a reduced load even w/o that stuff. "you need to maintain your gpa because numbers matter for medical schools", I cut down on my hours of research, non-profit work, and a job all while hearing about reasonable the expectations of being able to do all that stuff on top of classes supposedly was. I got the grades and had to hear "med schools like to see students who study for their mcat on top of classes", so I did that which got unbelievably frustrating (it's a really difficult exam, lots of the material emphasized on it wasn't covered super well in my undergrad so i had to learn a lot of new stuff, and I was taking really difficult upper div classes and had to make major come backs on each final to get my gpa which was a 3.59 up to a 3.60+ gpa and when I graduated I did pull off a 3.62 gpa.) and even after studying for 6-7 months and utilizing all the resources available my scores were still borderline 30 on official AAMCS exams (highest I got on one was a 31) "but med schools only want students with a 30 [30 as a bare minimum] above on the mcat", so I took the mcat and am waiting on my score. To makes matters even worse I discovered how important volunteering was for med schools on the day of my last final in undergrad (I always thought I could volunteer a little, shadow a few docs and that'd be enough and I also wanted to actually get something out of the experience and have it be meaningful), so instead of actually getting a chance to enjoy myself in my graduation period I end up having to do a ton of digging to turn this lemon into lemonade and get volunteering (I was willing to invest as much time as needed as noted by the fact I am completing over a hundred hours a month) all while hearing "med schools want students who volunteer on top of all their other responsibilities as an undergrad and many med school students would love to work 50+ hrs a week at a clinic".
Also, if you add mental fatigue and sleep deprivation into the picture it just gets even more unsavory, not to mention that I had very little quality of life on top of all those responsibilities ( i'm not some gifted prodigy who can just sit in class, barely pay attention, multi-task and just get all As. it takes me all the time i've got, I set up office hours with professors often times every school day, wasn't afraid to look stupid, spent a lot of time with study groups, hundreds+ flashcards, re-reading notes, the book, looking up all sorts of resources to get concepts to do well). Not to mention it gave me very little time to truly value and appreciate what I was doing). If you pile this many responsibilities on the average person it becomes more of a laundry list than anything and harder and harder to actually get something out of what you're doing. People can only do so many things and I did the most I could and honestly, I would rather do one or two things for med school and have them be meaningful (if that were possible and unfortunately it isnt) and actually get something out of it than have to complete a ton of different things at once. Imagine being tugged on by like 5 different people in totally different directions, that's what the whole premed process is like for me. Not to mention I received consistent poor advice and discouragement from the premed counselors.