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Hi! I'm a current HPSP AF member, and a 3rd year in school. I'll be doing an ADT in a few months, and I had a few questions. (Preceded by a long story)
About one year ago, I underwent a severe bout of depression. I was referred to a psychiatrist by my PCP, who placed me on an antidepressant. I had qualms about reporting this to the military because I'd heard things (like that they kick you out for severe depression on meds), and though I didn't believe the rumors completely, I was too scared to ask or take the chance of reporting it. I know this is about the time that everyone chimes in about how stupid I was to not report it, however, it gets worse. After probably 2 months on the antidepressant I was additionally diagnosed with ADD. The psych was obviously somewhat of a pill pusher, however I followed her advice and began taking Vyvanse for ~6 months. The combination of the Vyvanse and antidepressant did wonders for me and I felt human for the first time in forever.
However, I became anxious about reporting the ADD/Vyvanse to the AF, because I was scared that they'd go through all the records from my psych and see that I hadn't disclosed the major depression, then they'd kick me out, and a lot of other bad things. I was so scared that I didn't disclose it, and I took myself off the Vyvanse because I didn't want to fail some random drug test.
My question is, I would really like to re-start the Vyvanse - but (1) would I need to go through another doctor so that it looked like a "new" diagnosis/something that I hadn't hidden, (2) how frequently do they randomly drug test / do they drug test on all ADTs - though I don't want to go back on and lie, I'm curious, and (3) how screwed am I in general? Will I get kicked out for the major depression? Or the ADD? Even if diagnosed by a new practitioner with brand new medical records?
I know that I'm an idiot and I should've disclosed in the first place. I should've disclosed when I got diagnosed with the ADD. I should've done something other than what I did, but I was so depressed and anxious that I didn't do the logical thing - so please, please don't chew me out for asking. I know I'm an idiot and I know what I "should" have done already. I just want advice going forward so I don't make more stupid decisions.
About one year ago, I underwent a severe bout of depression. I was referred to a psychiatrist by my PCP, who placed me on an antidepressant. I had qualms about reporting this to the military because I'd heard things (like that they kick you out for severe depression on meds), and though I didn't believe the rumors completely, I was too scared to ask or take the chance of reporting it. I know this is about the time that everyone chimes in about how stupid I was to not report it, however, it gets worse. After probably 2 months on the antidepressant I was additionally diagnosed with ADD. The psych was obviously somewhat of a pill pusher, however I followed her advice and began taking Vyvanse for ~6 months. The combination of the Vyvanse and antidepressant did wonders for me and I felt human for the first time in forever.
However, I became anxious about reporting the ADD/Vyvanse to the AF, because I was scared that they'd go through all the records from my psych and see that I hadn't disclosed the major depression, then they'd kick me out, and a lot of other bad things. I was so scared that I didn't disclose it, and I took myself off the Vyvanse because I didn't want to fail some random drug test.
My question is, I would really like to re-start the Vyvanse - but (1) would I need to go through another doctor so that it looked like a "new" diagnosis/something that I hadn't hidden, (2) how frequently do they randomly drug test / do they drug test on all ADTs - though I don't want to go back on and lie, I'm curious, and (3) how screwed am I in general? Will I get kicked out for the major depression? Or the ADD? Even if diagnosed by a new practitioner with brand new medical records?
I know that I'm an idiot and I should've disclosed in the first place. I should've disclosed when I got diagnosed with the ADD. I should've done something other than what I did, but I was so depressed and anxious that I didn't do the logical thing - so please, please don't chew me out for asking. I know I'm an idiot and I know what I "should" have done already. I just want advice going forward so I don't make more stupid decisions.