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Hi, I'm currently 18 in my second semester of college at a CC. To start off, I was god awful in high school. Not that I couldn't do it, but I was more of a punk and failing classes was the cool thing to do. I obviously regret it now and pulled myself together for junior year and senior year and ended up with a 3.0 or higher GPA, but nonetheless still was lowest of the low for class rank.
Anyways, not that matters (I hope) you guys are probably going to question why I want to be a Psychiatrist in the first place. Well to make it short, When I turned 14 or 15 or so, I developed a serious anxiety disorder to the point where I needed a signed paper for missing so much school. It got worse as the days went on and I soon developed major depression. I was forced to see Psychologist after Psychologist to a therapist then to a few psychiatrists. It got to the point where my parents tried slipping me Lexapro to help me. I refused to take medication as I was a horrific hypochondriac. I was scared of everything that harmed me, including drugs. I studied disease upon disease and could most likely list off every known symptom of every type of cancer there was in this world. After becoming so symptomatic I sought help from specialists from seeing if I had a brain tumor to retinal detachment etc etc. The main reason behind my determination of wanting to become a Psychiatrist is that all the mental health specialists I've seen were terrible. As a shy human being opening myself up was pretty hard for me, and the only response I would get is a "Is that so?" or something along the lines of "You should try medication". Even the Psychiatrists I've seen basically didn't care about who I was as a person, but basically just handed me medication right after the word anxiety was said. I find it frustrating that mental health is a serious issue and the majority of the specialists in this field hand over mediation basically telling patients to take medication the rest of their life or else you'll have constant anxiety attacks.
Sorry for the rant, but as you can see why I'm so determined to fill the space as a Psychiatrist. You could ask why I don't want I just don't want to become a clinical psychologist, but the answer to that question is that there are obviously more mental illnesses than just anxiety and depression. I don't want to limit myself to helping just a few mental health disorders. I want to be able to help a wide variety of them.
Moving on. In my opinion, I do not think I'm intelligent enough to get into Medical School. My first semester of college I had a 3.2gpa, which is amazing to me, but obviously low to all medical geniuses out there. Now onto my current semester, I'm struggling horribly. First off, I can't do math for the life of me. I'm in basic Algebra that seeks help daily for it just to get by with a D. It isn't the end of the semester yet so I'm hoping for a B at least.. Anyways, i'm also taking intro to chemistry. This an INTRO to it, and I only have a C. Again hoping to get it up to a B by the end of the semester. As you can see, I'm clearly not smart. Yes you can bring up the point that I have a negative attitude and that won't get me very far. I do NOT have a negative attitude. I went into this courses with confidence. I studied hours on top of hours only to not do well. I seek help from the help my college provides along with friends and family.
I thought about switching my major to nursing, as from being such a hypochondriac, I consider myself sort of medically inclined I guess you can say, but I really do not want to be a nurse. I wanted to help mentally, which is why I picked Psychiatry for my career.
My cousin is a ER surgeon and was wanted by just about every single medical school you can think of around the globe, and here I am struggling to do basic algebra. I don't know how I expect to do harder math classes such as Calculus or organic chem etc.
Yes I am working hard, I just don't think i'm intellectually up to par to succeed to even come close to getting an acceptance letter from a Med school. I am surely going to try, but I really don't know what to do.
I thank everyone that took time to read this post fully. I could use some advice. All is appreciated. Thanks!
Anyways, not that matters (I hope) you guys are probably going to question why I want to be a Psychiatrist in the first place. Well to make it short, When I turned 14 or 15 or so, I developed a serious anxiety disorder to the point where I needed a signed paper for missing so much school. It got worse as the days went on and I soon developed major depression. I was forced to see Psychologist after Psychologist to a therapist then to a few psychiatrists. It got to the point where my parents tried slipping me Lexapro to help me. I refused to take medication as I was a horrific hypochondriac. I was scared of everything that harmed me, including drugs. I studied disease upon disease and could most likely list off every known symptom of every type of cancer there was in this world. After becoming so symptomatic I sought help from specialists from seeing if I had a brain tumor to retinal detachment etc etc. The main reason behind my determination of wanting to become a Psychiatrist is that all the mental health specialists I've seen were terrible. As a shy human being opening myself up was pretty hard for me, and the only response I would get is a "Is that so?" or something along the lines of "You should try medication". Even the Psychiatrists I've seen basically didn't care about who I was as a person, but basically just handed me medication right after the word anxiety was said. I find it frustrating that mental health is a serious issue and the majority of the specialists in this field hand over mediation basically telling patients to take medication the rest of their life or else you'll have constant anxiety attacks.
Sorry for the rant, but as you can see why I'm so determined to fill the space as a Psychiatrist. You could ask why I don't want I just don't want to become a clinical psychologist, but the answer to that question is that there are obviously more mental illnesses than just anxiety and depression. I don't want to limit myself to helping just a few mental health disorders. I want to be able to help a wide variety of them.
Moving on. In my opinion, I do not think I'm intelligent enough to get into Medical School. My first semester of college I had a 3.2gpa, which is amazing to me, but obviously low to all medical geniuses out there. Now onto my current semester, I'm struggling horribly. First off, I can't do math for the life of me. I'm in basic Algebra that seeks help daily for it just to get by with a D. It isn't the end of the semester yet so I'm hoping for a B at least.. Anyways, i'm also taking intro to chemistry. This an INTRO to it, and I only have a C. Again hoping to get it up to a B by the end of the semester. As you can see, I'm clearly not smart. Yes you can bring up the point that I have a negative attitude and that won't get me very far. I do NOT have a negative attitude. I went into this courses with confidence. I studied hours on top of hours only to not do well. I seek help from the help my college provides along with friends and family.
I thought about switching my major to nursing, as from being such a hypochondriac, I consider myself sort of medically inclined I guess you can say, but I really do not want to be a nurse. I wanted to help mentally, which is why I picked Psychiatry for my career.
My cousin is a ER surgeon and was wanted by just about every single medical school you can think of around the globe, and here I am struggling to do basic algebra. I don't know how I expect to do harder math classes such as Calculus or organic chem etc.
Yes I am working hard, I just don't think i'm intellectually up to par to succeed to even come close to getting an acceptance letter from a Med school. I am surely going to try, but I really don't know what to do.
I thank everyone that took time to read this post fully. I could use some advice. All is appreciated. Thanks!