I am currently a CA2 and it seems like it is about that time to make up my mind about a pain fellowship, as the application process is right around the corner. I did not count on doing a fellowship at all, however I have really enjoyed my pain rotation and now dread going back to the OR. I am hoping that some of the more experienced pain attendings on this board could weigh in on my general feelings on pain medicine. My reasons for chosing pain are:
1. Tired of OR environment. I'm tired of zero respect not only for the anesthesia residents. My attendings get no more respect than we do and will throw us under the bus as often as possible. They run around kissing surgeon ***** all day long. Even the circulating nurses and housekeeping folks get in on the action. I feel like a nurse who specializes in kissing surgeon *****. Table up, table down. Better empty that foley or the PACU nurses will write you up and treat you in ways they would never dream of treating a surgeon.
2. Competion from nurses. There are nurses who think they can do our job better than us. This is no secret and they will tell anyone with ears. For the most part, administrators and patients do not know any better. While it is a concern of mine, it really goes back to the whole respect issue. It just puts me in a foul mood and dislike the CRNAs at my program.
3. Zero control. Lets just say the government or insurance goes wild with reimbursement cuts and says "anesthesia, you get a 90% cut. You now make 50K/year." I can not do a thing about that. I can't refuse to take medicare/medicaid because it is what the surgeon brings into the hospital. If I refuse to do cases from a certain party, I will quickly find myself looking for employment. Soon or later they will realize that they have that power. They are paying nurses 180K+ per year! This is a bubble that will burst. I also have no power over my schedule. The add on list of the surgeon dictates my life.
4. Bad **** happens in anesthesia. A lot of it can be managed in skilled hands. However, some of it can not. Massive MI, air embolisms, fat embolisms, MH, etc, etc. These patients are ticking time bombs just waiting to explode on my conscience and malpractice coverage. I am always on edge, which is a good thing for anesthesia. However, I bring that home with me, which I do not like.
Why pain:
1. Patient interaction. I actually do miss clinic work. I realize that some of these chronic pain patients are like black holes of energy. The little old ladies with a bulging disc are gratifying to me right now. Just being able to help someone who is legitimately in pain makes me feel a lot better. True, it might only be 10% of patients (or less) who are not interested in sitting on their couch, collecting their disability checks and "eating" percocet like it is candy. But at this moment in time, that 10% (or less) is worth it to me. Does this feeling tend to change?
2. Cool procedures. I think that this one speaks for itself.
3. Control. Just the feeling of being a real doctor again and not the b!tch to everyone in the OR. There is no one arguing with me about my plan of care.
4. It is a relatively new and evolving field. There is a lot of opportunity for research and advancement of the field.
5. I go home happy. I am not snapping at my wife and dreading the next morning.
In general, my family comes above all else. I started med school single and now I am married with kids. While I might be able to make more money in anesthesia, pain eliminates the numerous 24+ hr calls/weekends/holidays away from my family. So far I have loved it and enjoy what I do at work finally. Am I being a naive CA2? Are these legitimate reasons to go into pain? What am I missing?
1. Tired of OR environment. I'm tired of zero respect not only for the anesthesia residents. My attendings get no more respect than we do and will throw us under the bus as often as possible. They run around kissing surgeon ***** all day long. Even the circulating nurses and housekeeping folks get in on the action. I feel like a nurse who specializes in kissing surgeon *****. Table up, table down. Better empty that foley or the PACU nurses will write you up and treat you in ways they would never dream of treating a surgeon.
2. Competion from nurses. There are nurses who think they can do our job better than us. This is no secret and they will tell anyone with ears. For the most part, administrators and patients do not know any better. While it is a concern of mine, it really goes back to the whole respect issue. It just puts me in a foul mood and dislike the CRNAs at my program.
3. Zero control. Lets just say the government or insurance goes wild with reimbursement cuts and says "anesthesia, you get a 90% cut. You now make 50K/year." I can not do a thing about that. I can't refuse to take medicare/medicaid because it is what the surgeon brings into the hospital. If I refuse to do cases from a certain party, I will quickly find myself looking for employment. Soon or later they will realize that they have that power. They are paying nurses 180K+ per year! This is a bubble that will burst. I also have no power over my schedule. The add on list of the surgeon dictates my life.
4. Bad **** happens in anesthesia. A lot of it can be managed in skilled hands. However, some of it can not. Massive MI, air embolisms, fat embolisms, MH, etc, etc. These patients are ticking time bombs just waiting to explode on my conscience and malpractice coverage. I am always on edge, which is a good thing for anesthesia. However, I bring that home with me, which I do not like.
Why pain:
1. Patient interaction. I actually do miss clinic work. I realize that some of these chronic pain patients are like black holes of energy. The little old ladies with a bulging disc are gratifying to me right now. Just being able to help someone who is legitimately in pain makes me feel a lot better. True, it might only be 10% of patients (or less) who are not interested in sitting on their couch, collecting their disability checks and "eating" percocet like it is candy. But at this moment in time, that 10% (or less) is worth it to me. Does this feeling tend to change?
2. Cool procedures. I think that this one speaks for itself.
3. Control. Just the feeling of being a real doctor again and not the b!tch to everyone in the OR. There is no one arguing with me about my plan of care.
4. It is a relatively new and evolving field. There is a lot of opportunity for research and advancement of the field.
5. I go home happy. I am not snapping at my wife and dreading the next morning.
In general, my family comes above all else. I started med school single and now I am married with kids. While I might be able to make more money in anesthesia, pain eliminates the numerous 24+ hr calls/weekends/holidays away from my family. So far I have loved it and enjoy what I do at work finally. Am I being a naive CA2? Are these legitimate reasons to go into pain? What am I missing?