It seems like most of you are doing inpatient residencies? What are some of the barriers that you are starting to face as residents (timeliness, communication skills, etc.)?
My program is a community based program and I just got my quarterly eval. I'm a bit disappointed in the feedback that I received, but I can't tell if it's just me being a new resident or if it's the fact that my program is brand new and everyone is trying to figure things out. So I wanted to see where you all stood to kind of compare myself (especially if there are any community residents out there too). I've been getting a lot of mixed signals. I know I'm not doing a bad job (they reinforce that every time I mention it..."No, you're doing just fine!" or "Stop talking like that, you're being silly."), but I feel like all I get is negative feedback instead of positive. I came out of my quarterly eval feeling like my ass just got handed to me and then some. I'm a hard working, dedicated individual who never half asses anything. It's just starting to wear on me, although I've mentioned this to the individuals precepting me time and time again. Anyone in a similar situation? I've been thinking about what could be causing this and I'm not sure if its because the pharmacists I'm with didn't do a residency and I'm concerned that there might be some lingering issues with that. I'm also concerned that they view me as a practitioner that's been out in the field for longer than what I have been on some days. Their expectations of what knowledge I have is quite bipolar and rarely consistent. And finally, there's always that lingering worry in the pit of my stomach that makes me wonder if I'm not doing a good job.
Maybe I just over think things. Maybe I just need to sleep more. Or maybe it's already time for a vacation? Do we even get those?
Also, I'm noticing that a lot of pharmacists really do think I'm still a student. As a matter of fact, one of my preceptors continuously calls me an intern, even after I correct them about it. There are times when I feel like I'm not being treated like a pharmacist and I also feel like I'm expected to take other's thoughts and opinions even though I'm able to use my own judgement and form my own thoughts and opinions. Has anyone dealt with this barrier and if so, how did you overcome it?
Overall, I think I do enjoy my program. It definitely lines up with my career goals and I'm toying with the idea of a second year residency. I signed up for PPS, just because I've been told it is a great place to practice interview skills and who knows what job opportunities will come of it?
Sorry for the long, needy post.
Happy Residency Year!