I have to rant about the BF... Err...ex BF as of this morning.
The handle to our front door broke off four days ago... still not fixed. I have been gone since last Friday on interviews, came home Wednesday night at midnight, went to work Thursday at 6am and have worked 12 hour shifts Thurs through today (I'm at work now and need I say EXAUSTED!?!
). The BF doesn't have a job, just goes to school. Not to mention it is HIS house! He "hasn't had time" the last few days... WHY NOT?!
He says that life is about having fun, not always having to fix things (Basically he would rather be at the bar). Obviously, he was not ready to own a house then, but when I tell him this, it is a huge argument.
1) Why would you not want to fix the front door to your house ASAP? Anyone and their mother could come to our house right now, and clean us out!
2) Why does it take me asking you for 4 days straight when you literally have nothing to do!?
3) Why on the 3rd day when you still haven't done it (it would take less than an hour!), You promise me up and down it will get done that day and to "not worry about it", and when I come home, not only is it not done, but you are nowhere to be found?
2 hours later I get a call from your wasted a** at 1:30 am (Awesome that I got home from work at 11pm and had to be back this morning at 7) asking me to come pick you up because you got your jeep stuck in the woods... HOW IS THIS MY PROBLEM?!!?
I can't even put into words WHY I'm mad right now, I just am!!!
HIS PRIORITIES ARE WHACKED!!!! And I am
SO TIRED of the drinking and driving thing... it is not fair that I have to worry about him every time he goes out... not to mention the poor souls he could hurt or kill. It is a constant argument and something I simply am not going to deal with anymore. Not to mention, he constantly leaves our poor dogs by themselves all day long without taking them out, and then when I get home 12 hours later and they have peed on the floor, I get to clean it up! My female has constant UTIs and she needs to go out frequently!
I hate the fact that I moved across the country to be with this man who is never even home half the time. I go to work 45 hours a week, am taking 2 classes, applying to veterinary school, going on interviews, volunteer 20 hours a week, and still manage to make time for us. It's frustrating for someone to tell you they don't have time to FIX A DOOR HANDLE when you literally have to remind yourself just to breath everyday, while they go hang out with their buddies all the time. And then, I am constantly asked to rescue him from these situations, without him thinking for ONE second how it is affecting me (sleep wise and emotionally)! UGH!!!!!
Then he is passed out in the shower, pulls the curtain rod off the wall, and gets water alllll over my bathroom at 2 am.
I left him a note this morning... "It's over, Billy" and left for work. I don't want this anymore. I don't like who I am when I'm with him. It won't be easy because we have a home here, three animals, and 4 years of history together. I adore his whole family (besides his mother
) and we have good friends and a good life here... most of the time. Today is one of those days where you want to stay at work as long as possible to avoid going "home". This SUCKS! :cry:
Dear UFL and Auburn, make next week a happy week please
!!!