Test Date: 8/21/14
Time: 1pm
FL AAMC Average: 37 (14/10/13)
Post-test expected score: 32
Actual Score (PS/V/BS): 11-06-12 = 29
I couldn't sleep last night due to anxiety, but in the back of my mind I had hope because I thought I did alright on test day. I always try to tell myself to never give up, and keep pressing on as far as I can. I always believed that those who believe they couldn't would probably end up not being able to. I took a 2000 dollar prep course, and studied at least 400 hours over the summer (did TPR, Berkeley, EK 101). I remember losing connection to most of my friends over the summer, as I watched them go on vacation or hang around in the city/beach as I read over textbook over textbook in a dim library. I lost 20 pounds, my health was deteriorating, and my family was going through some family-related issues. Still, I had hope.
I opened my aamc browser today and logged on. As soon as I saw the score, my face stood still. All I saw was tears running down my face. There was no noise. Nothing. Shock. Depression. Isolation. My head sank to the desk, and I couldn't breathe. The world crashed down, as the harsh reality was that...I had failed. I had lost everything.