Hello
I began a degree in Veterinary Science at the start of this year.
I am struggling with depression now. I find I have no time for myself anymore. I study non stop and this is just to get by. I also feel like I don't fit in with any of the other students. I don't related to them in anyway. I was one of the top students in my class in my undergraduate degree, and I find myself intimated by how smart my peers are. I find the course so demanding that I don't find myself enjoying the course. I've stopped doing all the things I loved. I really need advice, because I feel as if I am on the verge of dropping out. I was wondering if there are any other Veterinary students who are feeling, or have gone through the same thing.
Thank you
Hey there,
The number one thing to remember is - you're not alone. I guarrentee that atleast 1 of your other classmates feels the same way you do - even if you don't know who that person is. I myself am currently on antidepressants atm - mental illness is not an uncommon thing in the vet school or profession. You are not alone.
The next thing I suggest you do is get some help. Go see your doctor, go see a councellor, talk to a friend you can trust. If there is a professor you are particularly close to, go talk to them. Approximately 1/3 people will suffer depression or anxiety at some point in their life. Chances are, someone you talk to will have either been through what you're going through, or can point you in the right direction to get some further help. But getting help is so important - you are genuinely not alone, and there are people who seriously care about you. Take advantage of those people. They want to know about things like this.
After that, I would talk to all your professors. Keep them in the loop, tell them that you're struggling. You won't be the first or last student who will say that to them - and more power for you for telling them than struggling on on your own. If you tell them something is wrong, they can help you - but they can't if you don't tell them. In my experience, they are super lovely about getting you help and sorting things out. And its much easier to tell them and get a plan in place now than wait until you've failed something.
Also don't forget to take mental health days. Some days, especially when your depressed, you just sit there feeling more depressed about the study you have to do, that you're not doing, and then you don't study. So write those days of completely, and go see friends, go for a walk, read a book (non-vet) go to the movies, call your parents. I would also schedule 1 night a week where you do something non-vet and see non-vet people. 1 night a week should not be causing you to fail, not at this point.
I would also see someone in the teaching and learning department who should be able to help you with study techniques. Another thing to remember is that in vet school, everyone has come from somewhere where they've been top dog. That's why they're here - thats why YOUR here. It can be a pretty tough adjustment from being the smartest kids in the class to being average. But take a walk through your campus - you're usually in the top 1% of students there. And at the end of the day, being the smartest doesnt mean being the best vet. So stop comparing yourself and focus more on yourself. And whats more, ASK those super smart kids how they're studying. Go to the library with them. Not only may it help you up your grades, but it might help you connect with classmates too.
My next bit of advice is controversial, but each to his own and it helped me a lot. Think about going on antidepressants. I know there's a pretty big stigma associated with them (wrongly, in my opinion) but they can be a really helpful tool to get your life back on track. Lots of people will tell you to eat better, exercise, see friends, do things you love etc to fix depression - and they're all right - what they also don't understand is how hard it is to start doing those things when you're depressed. So if you think you need a bit of a helping hand, see your doc about getting some. They make taking the next steps that much easier - and I personally didn't have any time to waste, or I was going to fail out.
Lastly, if you need it - take a year off. I know people who were depressed and have and it was the best thing they ever did. So if worse comes to worse, you can always defer, take a year off, sort yourself out and come back. A year is nothing.
I hope this helped, feel free to reply or pm me if you like
I hope you feel better and get back on track soon. A few weeks ago, I could have written the exact same post. You are not alone.