2/23/13
My story, Past and up to present.
I graduated Nursing school in 1989 and Passed my Licensing test for RN the first time.
I went on to work as a Trauma Nurse and ER and Cardiac nurse the next few years.
I then wanted to work in Home Health and Home Infusion. Somehow ended up working in Home Hospice.
Then after 9 years of Nursing I told my wife I wanted to go back to school and study to go to medical school. My answer was "No your not!!!!" She had dreams of staying home the rest of her life and not working and wanted me to support her lifestyle. A few years later we are divorced (Surprised? )
I remarried and after a couple years still wanted to go to medical school but I was getting older and at 39 started to look into my options, I cleaned up my credit and a year later was accepted at St. Christophers College of Medicine in Luton England. Great right? Well........ I packed my bags sold my house and took my wife and son to England to live on US student loans (Key Bank). I was accepted into the premed program to "Finish Ochem" and allowed to take some medical school courses, after a year I found out that the school had charter issues with Senegal and I was being tossed around from medical school to premed and back with no clear path. I applied to St. James School of medicine on Bonaire and was accepted as a transfer. Since I had not taken a full 1st semester at St. Chris and getting transcripts from that school was next to impossible I decided to retake the courses I had already passed. Good clean slate right? So I went through basic science and passed all my classes, Sallie Mae was lending the money for study and all was god. I came back to the US after White Coat and rented a house in Georgia to begin Clinicals. Then a life changing event happened, Sallie Mae told me 1 more semester and that was it, no more loans to finish medical school. OMG what to do? I had no idea how I would finish and this was so unfair. No one cared and Congress just ignored my pleas. My mother in law and others helped me to pay for the coming semesters. The first year I studied for step one but with so much on me, trying to pay bills, rent and tuition, I could not study well and I kept having panic attacks. When I tool Step one I did not pass, I struggled for a few more attempts. St. James gave me a problem with Clinicals by the middle of my 4th year, they told me none of the clinicals counted I had done the past 18 weeks counted. I was still in 3rd year and I had better pass step one. I had paid them for the semesters ( 3 in a year) but they refused to count my work despite the good reviews I had. So I left and applied to transfer to All Saints (Now Aureus) School of medicine. It was decided I would do a year with them and with the transcripts from St James, it was decided that I would do Cores that are usually done in 3rd year in my 4th year. (Yes Strange) This made sense since Aureus had a better clinical system. I passed Step One and went on to finish my rotations. I still had no loans and used tax returns and worked some to pay for school. We lived on 50 dollars a week for groceries and I still have no idea where I had money for gas for the car. I then attempted step 2, with all the stress and the panic attacks it took 2 more times for me to get myself under control and pass step 2.
Today: I graduated Medical School 2011, I was ECFMG certified last year in 2012. I paid for and applied to over 200 programs in the residency match for 2013 and have not been given one interview. I have no idea what I will do but I will not give in or give up. I will fight and I hope I will still get a residency this year. I'm studying for step 3 and hope to take it and pass this April.
I hope my story helps other make their decisions. I think my biggest mistake was multiple attempts on step one then step 2 before getting my panic attacks during testing was under better control. You truly cannot think when in panic mode and now take a beta blocker before and during the day's testing.
So, I will not stop, give up or loose faith, I will fight until I succeed
Dr. Bill