Getting so discouraged...

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UCLA2000 said:
As I stated in my previous post. With your stats etc IN MY OPINION you should have no problem getting interviews.

Please take my advice with a grain of salt and feel free to dismiss it as the ramblings of a well-intentioned fool.

I've volunteered as a pre-med advisor to undergrads for several years now and you really get a sense of the response that people should get in the whole admissions process. All of the words in bold above are things which could potentially be viewed as threatening or red flags to the conservative medical profession.

During my undergrad I volunteered as an EMT in a free clinic with a physician. We were all "trained" health care workers. The volunteer experience was warmly received by med schools.

From a conservative medicine standpoint:

to practice basic protocol medicine without licensed medical personnel overseeing it at all
Isn't practicing medicine without a license illegal? (you speak of draining abscesses that is essentially a surgical procedure). Did you happen to mention any of these things in your personal statement? Have you seen the movie Patch Adams? Did you see the reception he got from the medical profession?

well, sort of and sort of not. our clinic has a special legal dispensation from the health jurisdiction to do what we do legally. so i DO do things that many could not do legally, but i can because of where i volunteer. it's clear in the LOR that what i do is not, actually, illegal.

UCLA2000 said:
lends his license for our ability to buy controlled meds Does this mean that you're prescribing meds without any supervision? Or are you running every single case where drugs need to be prescribed past the doc with the license?

no, we do not run every med or vaccination by a doc, nor is there one on duty all the time (actually, there's only one rarely there on sundays, but not the other days of the week). we practice "protocol medicine" which is that we have set protocols for basic evalutation and treatment for simple medical needs. the protocols are set in stone and approved by the doctor, and we don't go outside protocol. if something is unclear with a client, we consult with another lay health worker, and if there is not consensus on protocol in the case, the doctor is called for a phone consult. protocols often call for anitbiotics, or a vaccination, or the morning after pill, etc., and we dispense the meds for free.

UCLA2000 said:
volunteer socialist/anarchist free clinic WTF does that mean? both words are red flags. Couldn't you just say free clinic? Did you mention any of your political views or anything like that in your personal statement?

well, it means we're all volunteer. no one is paid at all. and it means that no one is in charge. we are a collective and active members have equal say and all decisions are made by consensus of members. the doctors are not members and only have say over protocol approval, not how the clinic is run. it is important because i/we don't just show up and do a little thing for a few hours a week. we keep the place open. sure, i see clients, but i run a section, so for every hour of client contact i'm putting in another 5 keeping things going -- ordering vaccine, revising and consulting on protocol updates, writing grants for funding, teaching classes to train new members, etc. the words "anarchist" and "socialist" don't appear anywhere, but collective does (on the LOR letterhead, amongst other places) as does feminist. we are also a harm reduction theory based clinic, and everything we do is based on client education and choice, with total non-judgement or coersion wrt behaviors and care choice.

UCLA2000 said:
Lastly, in your prior post you stated that your essays had "compelling content". What do you mean by that? The admissions essays should be all hugs n kisses. Nothing controversial.

as to why i'm changing careers. it wasn't that controversial, at least i or anyone who read it didn't think so. i talked about subjectivity of experience, approximation of truth, and keeping an inquisitive, open mind about each situation, and how my experiences have led me to medicine.

UCLA2000 said:
It is entirely possible that perhaps something that you innocently mentioned was taken out of context or phrased in such a way as to convey an entirely different meaning. If so, then it could explain the lukewarm reception that you have received.

Remember, medicine is extremely conservative. The last thing that the profession wants to do is bring someone into it that is going to rock to boat, or destroy its very foundation.

i'm thinking more and more this is it. i think i'm on hold everywhere because they don't know what to do with me -- i'm not a known packaged quantity, and haven't tried to sell myself that way. oh well, so much for being yourself and being unique.

if medicine is that conservative, i think it'll be fine if i get rejected everywhere because it would only end up being misery for me to have to deal with it. i'll go be a PA or an NP, or get an MPH and fight the good fight. i refuse to compromise myself, especially after all the tribulations to get to place where i finally really know who that is. if they can't handle me, screw 'em, they don't deserve to have me. ;-)

thank you everyone for comments and ideas. i really appreciate it. good luck to you all!

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UCLA2000 said:
:laugh: Those "conservative, bitter old doctors" have the power to open or close the door to your medical career. If you ever hope of being accepted, then you better tone it down.

maybe, but to what extent to you need to tone it down? admittedly, i don't have anything as far left as noonday has on my application, but my application does clearly show that i'm a feminist and i have expressed some clearly liberal sentiments in my interviews. i'm already in, so whatever, it worked. the bigger question is what do you lose by subjugating your beliefs to the whims of angry old men when it might not even be necessary (my application cycle shows that it's not, actually). i'm starting to think medicine is full of the bitter types who b&tch about how they don't get enough respect or earn enough money because we all start to adopt the attitude of the bitter elite just to play by their rules.
 
Once you start this path and actually get to experience a lot of the trials and tribulations your perspective might change somewhat...(not saying that it will but it might). Medicine is NOT what most folks think it is looking from the outside in and this is hard to "know" until you truly experience it. Medicine is not all angry old men and bitter types but sometimes a bit of reality might sound like "bitterness" when it is not.
 
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noonday said:
well, sort of and sort of not. our clinic has a special legal dispensation from the health jurisdiction to do what we do legally. so i DO do things that many could not do legally, but i can because of where i volunteer. it's clear in the LOR that what i do is not, actually, illegal


we practice "protocol medicine" which is that we have set protocols for basic evalutation and treatment for simple medical needs. the protocols are set in stone and approved by the doctor, and we don't go outside protocol. protocols often call for anitbiotics, or a vaccination, or the morning after pill, etc., and we dispense the meds for free.


well, it means we're all volunteer. no one is paid at all. and it means that no one is in charge. we are a collective and active members have equal say and all decisions are made by consensus of members. the doctors are not members and only have say over protocol approval, not how the clinic is run. it is important because i/we don't just show up and do a little thing for a few hours a week.

i'm thinking more and more this is it. i think i'm on hold everywhere because they don't know what to do with me --

Wow you've certainly said a mouthful in this response.

Allow me to play devil's advocate here.

In essence you're running/volunteering in a free clinic that dispenses meds, diagnoses and treats patients with little/no supervision from docs. You practice protocol based medicine (which requires you to evaluate, and asses a patient prior to determining which protocol to follow.

So now lets say that someone decides to give you medical training. I suspect that one day you'd be able to open a group of these lay healthcare provider free clinics.

The effect that you could have on the medical profession could be somewhat similar to what Walmart does to the local economy. If you were to open 10 or 15 of these lay person clinics and allow them to "borrow your license", then you could potentially put actual docs out of business. Look at the effect that the NP model is already having on FP and Med docs in the field with their cheap labor etc. Currently 1 doc can oversee the operation of numerous NP's. It is a much cheaper model for HMO's, but does patient care suffer?

What impact do you think that lay person free clinics would have on local FP and IM docs?

Plus, I haven't even begun to get into the ethical/legal questions raised by such a clinic. Where is the quality control? What if you misdiagnose someone? What if someone dies or has life-long sequelae from a disease process because it was not diagnosed/dealt with in the proper manner.

It's like the difference between in n out burger and mc donald's. The end result is the same (i.e. you're full) but there is arguably a huge difference in the quality of the product.

Keep in mind that these thoughts are coming from someone who has volunteered thousands of hours performing medical relief work in inner cities both in the US and internationally. I went to school for 10 years in order to earn the privilege of caring for people in their time of need, and even I have serious questions regarding the ethics behind what you're doing.

Now imagine how a senior physician who has never volunteered in the community, has kids to support, 10 years worth of student loans to repay, a house payment to make, and has been in the profession for 20 years or more may view what you are doing.

You stated that you think that they have you on hold because they don't know what to do with you. I think that they know exactly what to do with you. Keep you out of medicine! You're too much of a threat.

It's like any other profession in the world. If we were all plumbers and you were doing all the "basic plumbing" in the city for free, do you think that anyone in the city would want to give you a crash course on "advanced plumbing"?
 
exlawgrrl said:
maybe, but to what extent to you need to tone it down? the bigger question is what do you lose by subjugating your beliefs to the whims of angry old men when it might not even be necessary (my application cycle shows that it's not, actually)..

You lose nothing because you are not "subjugating your beliefs" as you assert. You are merely keeping your mouth shut. Believe what you want but keep your mouth shut until you're in a position to do something about it.

Is that once you're in med school? Is that after you've got a residency spot? Is that after you have a permanent attending spot? Who knows.
 
UCLA2000 said:
Believe what you want but keep your mouth shut until you're in a position to do something about it.

Where I come from, they call this "dancing a jig". And lets just say that I'll be breakdancin, doing the booty drop, whatever, until I get a spot in med school!! :laugh:
 
oh my, we have such different takes on all of this it's like we don't speak the same language...

UCLA2000 said:
In essence you're running/volunteering in a free clinic that dispenses meds, diagnoses and treats patients with little/no supervision from docs. You practice protocol based medicine (which requires you to evaluate, and asses a patient prior to determining which protocol to follow.

yes. we have many founding principles, amongst them that we believe in the demystification of medical care and the empowerment of everyone to learn how to take care of themselves and each other.

that said, we do not see anything immediately life-threatening (nothing requiring an ambulance), no "real" surgery (we take off warts, drain boils, etc., but nothing requiring more than local lidocaine/marcaine), and we do not have ongoing care, except for syphillis tx and follow up vaccinations (hep). we see people getting HIV tested, hep tested, STD screened, people who need td boosters, hep vaccinations, seasonal flu shots, and people with things like URI's, UTI's, strep throat (we have in house lab workers), basic dermatology needs, etc. again, nothing on-going, and nothing immediately life-threatening.

and yeah, we have to assess to know the protocol. but really, how hard is that? people know what is wrong with them, at least in general, and they know their body better than a provider ever could, so it's about listening and translating what they say into an identified problem with a name. plus, our trainings are really comprehensive, moreso than the state trainings where there are state trainings for things (like HIV counseling, phlebotomy, etc.)

UCLA2000 said:
So now lets say that someone decides to give you medical training. I suspect that one day you'd be able to open a group of these lay healthcare provider free clinics.

well, i would, but i doubt i could get legal dispensation most places in this country.

UCLA2000 said:
The effect that you could have on the medical profession could be somewhat similar to what Walmart does to the local economy. If you were to open 10 or 15 of these lay person clinics and allow them to "borrow your license", then you could potentially put actual docs out of business. Look at the effect that the NP model is already having on FP and Med docs in the field with their cheap labor etc. Currently 1 doc can oversee the operation of numerous NP's. It is a much cheaper model for HMO's, but does patient care suffer?

LMAO. first, who do you think comes to us? 70% of our clients are either a.) homeless, b.) jobless, and/or c.) uninsured working poor. these are people that the medical system complains about having to deal with. these are the people who have to use the public ER for care for strep throat, and all at taxpayer/insurance payer expense. the other 30% of our clients, who come for the STD screens, HIV tests, etc., come to see us for care that is stigmatized in the system. these people come to us for what they will not ask their doc for, because of either judgement of behavior and/or not wanting the test, no matter a potential poz result, on their medical record, lest they ever have to find new insurance and it be listed as pre-existing and not covered.

UCLA2000 said:
What impact do you think that lay person free clinics would have on local FP and IM docs?

little to none. it would, though, lower the ER crowding with non-emergency patients, and provide empathetic care to populations that are marginalized. health care is a right, not a privaledge, after all.

UCLA2000 said:
Plus, I haven't even begun to get into the ethical/legal questions raised by such a clinic. Where is the quality control? What if you misdiagnose someone? What if someone dies or has life-long sequelae from a disease process because it was not diagnosed/dealt with in the proper manner.

like i said, we consult each other. and we don't deal with much (sure, syphillis could, but that test is pretty fool proof, and we do send that off to a commercial lab) that could go all that bad. and, 'real" dr's misdiagnose from time to time, even with all that training, no (i had a doc at my HMO misdiagnose the early stages of pneumonia as croup on me just last year)? human beings are imperfect. and we have been open for 37 years, and have never had a malpractice claim.

UCLA2000 said:
It's like the difference between in n out burger and mc donald's. The end result is the same (i.e. you're full) but there is arguably a huge difference in the quality of the product.

wow. ouch. you know, if you're ever in my part of the country, i invite you to come see what we do. i think you'll see that an HMO is mcdonalds, and we are more like your local non-chain hamburger stand. we look a little shabby on the outside, but the product is wonderful and unique.

UCLA2000 said:
Keep in mind that these thoughts are coming from someone who has volunteered thousands of hours performing medical relief work in inner cities both in the US and internationally. I went to school for 10 years in order to earn the privilege of caring for people in their time of need, and even I have serious questions regarding the ethics behind what you're doing.

see, i see the care as a right, and the ability to care as a moral obligation, not a privilege. we take care of the people most see as useless, or who's illness is seen as their own fault, and we do it with empathy and individualized non-judging care. we do it seeing them as who we, or someone we love, could end up as, not as some other species. and i see how a lot of docs treat these people. and i hear how they are beaten down emotionally or mistreated physically when they ask for care. and it makes me so angry. and i want to be able to pay the rent and take care of them full time, instead of having to work the full day career thing and only have 20-30 hours a week for it.

the ethics of it? how about the ethics of an ER doc not giving local before lancing an abscess because it might "teach the junkie a lesson" or the gyn doc acting morally repulsed and then giving a lecture about having too many partners to a sex worker or the student health clinic doctor insisting that a gay student with a kidney stone "probably has chlamydia, because you have had a lot of sex, haven't you"? i could list stories for pages...

UCLA2000 said:
Now imagine how a senior physician who has never volunteered in the community, has kids to support, 10 years worth of student loans to repay, a house payment to make, and has been in the profession for 20 years or more may view what you are doing.

like i said before, if this person can't handle it, then i don't really want to go to their school. if i have to do this another way, i will. there are many roads to the same end, and i will take another one if i have to. my prinicples and respecting my ideals without compromise are more important to me than what letters i end up with after my name or how much i end up getting paid.

UCLA2000 said:
You stated that you think that they have you on hold because they don't know what to do with you. I think that they know exactly what to do with you. Keep you out of medicine! You're too much of a threat.

It's like any other profession in the world. If we were all plumbers and you were doing all the "basic plumbing" in the city for free, do you think that anyone in the city would want to give you a crash course on "advanced plumbing"?

first, if you're right, i would already be rejected from everywhere, or most everywhere. i have 16 schools that have me on hold, and i got non-automatic secondaries to three schools, so it can't be that extreme a reaction.

and personally, i would teach them advanced plumbing. they clearly have an aptitude for the work, and a deep enough love of it to do it for free. who am i to stop them?

but that's me.
 
After reading this whole discussion, my guess is that 2 factors are problematic:
1. your 3.0 undergrad GPA with no recent coursework. Believe me, when your graduate degree is in a field outside medicine, no one in medicine knows or cares how excellent your school was or how interesting your research. Your graduate GPA is good, but in general the graduate GPA counts for nothing in the overall application, because everyone in grad school is expected to get a high GPA.
2. something about the overall tone of your application, e.g. you talk about "my prinicples and respecting my ideals without compromise are more important to me than what letters i end up with after my name or how much i end up getting paid." Instead of you just saying that you work with a free clinic and you have some good clinical skills, I think there is some kind of message that you pride yourself on working around/outside a system that's really dysfunctional. That's fine, but you have to get a positive spin on it instead of trashing the regular medical system. Any kind of defiance/challenge in your essay will be perceived, even if it's very subtle, and people will respond in a negative way. I really don't think it's that your work is so unconventional and threatening to the establishment; I think it's that your application has a tone that people pick up and don't respond to well. It's also possible that you come across as naively idealistic, and unaware of how much most doctors do struggle with compromising their ideals every day.
 
MeowMix said:
After reading this whole discussion, my guess is that 2 factors are problematic:
1. your 3.0 undergrad GPA with no recent coursework. Believe me, when your graduate degree is in a field outside medicine, no one in medicine knows or cares how excellent your school was or how interesting your research. Your graduate GPA is good, but in general the graduate GPA counts for nothing in the overall application, because everyone in grad school is expected to get a high GPA..

I can agree with this as far as having recent coursework from experience. It's essentially a must for the nontrad a fact I'll have to retify this year myself. However, I disagree that the grad GPA counts for nothing because I think that depends on what you majored in. While it is expected that everyone in grad school has a high GPA, not EVERYONE can earned an MS in say Chemistry or Biophysics.
 
noonday said:
i'm a woman who's been suffering the slings and arrows of pretty awful misogyny in a field that's about 90% male for over 7 years....
anyway, thanks, and good luck to you, too.
Try being a minority woman in a field that breaks down as 50% Asian male, 30% White male, 10% Indian Male and 9% African male with remaining 1% consisting of women and underrepresented minorities. Talk about misogny and other "issues"!!! :rolleyes: :laugh:
 
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