Thank you, everyone. I can't even begin to tell you how much this means to me, especially after struggling so much early on.
I'll likely be volunteering a bunch more and hopefully being more productive in research (and saving money in the process). I do hope to find some clinical volunteering opportunities in England as well, to contrast with the US. Hopefully, I do matriculate somewhere, anywhere, and I have a happy career.
I'm logging out of my alias now. Thank you again for the responses and kind words.