insearchofwisdom
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I had posted about switching out of my current career role (outpatient subspecialist) a few weeks ago and the main advice I had gotten was to try reducing my hours. Whether I chose it or not, I have had reduced hours/patients during this pandemic time and have been doing telemed from home. I am pretty certain now that I cannot maintain my current career. My practice is awesome and I know how lucky I am to have the job I do, especially at this time. Yet, I'm shocked by how frustrated I get with patients and I know they don't deserve that. It's also not on purpose. I just think this is not a good fit. I've been feeling burned out since residency and I don't think I've been willing to face it head on until now. The constant messages, the phone calls, refills, notes, constant reassurance, inability to take responsibility for their own health, entitlement, pushback, anxiety, patient reviews. I just can't do it anymore. I don't think switching to another IM field is going to bring me fulfillment. I'm also 300K in loans (currently in public service loan forgiveness) so am worried about how I'm going to pay those off. I have thought about nonclinical careers but again, am concerned about loans. I've even thought about going back to residency. I feel a little overwhelmed about how to move forward without feeling like this is how it's going to be forever or how I'm going to pay off loans.
Any thoughts/suggestions?
Thanks in advance.
Any thoughts/suggestions?
Thanks in advance.