Anyone Else Emotionally Drained?

[Dr. Will]

I just wanted to see if others were feeling as emotionally exhausted by this process as I was. I find out this week if I'm going to med school this fall or if I'm going to be reapplying. I haven't slept in days. My stomach is in complete knots. I've been focusing more on the negative aspects of life because of this. All this waiting is just driving me nuts. I've been on a roller coaster ride this whole year and I really don't want another ride. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="frown.gif" />

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[calbears84]

dr. will,
you cannot get to the rainbow without putting up with the rain. put your trust in the Lord. He knows what is best for you.

 

[Dr. Will]

MCP is my last shot. The decision is in the mail. Hope it's a big packet, 'cuz I know I'd feel much better about things with an acceptance. But I'm not too confident. It's been that kind of year for me. I just want to end this waiting so I can start working on my back-up plan.

 

[Jadeite]

It's really hard what we Med School applicant people have to go through - all of our friends/family/complete strangers telling us we're the absolute perfect doctor and that they're *SURE* we'll get in somewhere... then having to tell everyone we're only on hold lists, and we're not sure where you'll be going... And they ask all the time... Oh, and that way your heart speeds up when you hear the mail truck... or the phone rings... I'm sure *THAT'S* not healthy either.

But then again, there's a point to the madness, I suppose you could argue that those of us waiting to hear from the waitlist will probably be better doctors than those who got in immediately without a struggle. We REALLY want to go to medical school. We won't take anything for granted, and furthermore, we know something of what it is to deal with stress, anxiety and disapointment.

Uh-oh. I think I hear the mail!

Jade~

 

[patient]

I share your pain and frustration.
My life has been very miserable this year b/c of med sch appl. Everyone calls me to find out if I am in already and I cannot stand it anymore. I have decided to continue masters and reapply in two years. The pain if just too much.
I wish I no passion to become a doc but for now, I must suffer.

You are no the only one

 

[strangeattractor]

ditto! plus i'm burnt out in school, too...and my grades went down during the process, EEK! i feel like wearing a sign that says STOP ASKING ME WHAT I'M DOING NEXT YEAR...I WILL CALL YOU ALL WHEN I KNOW BUT UNTIL THEN, ASSUME I WILL BE TAP DANCING IN AN ALLEY IN NYC WITH A TIN CAN OUT FOR $BLING BLING$ SO I CAN APPLY AGAIN...i find thinking of odd "alternative" prospective professions that i would never REALLY pursue...ie street tap dancer, bohemian artist, stand up ventriloquist, etc. and telling people i've decided to do that instead relieves the stress well. at this point, it's all about distracting myself from the fact that i have no control over my destiny right now...dr. will...best of luck. please post when you know what the decision is, and i'll be crossing my fingers for you!!!!

 

[KyGrlDr2B]

Good Luck Dr Will. I hope everything comes through for you.

 

[Original]

Dr Will,
I hope things work out. Stay hopeful and energetic.

 

[SMW]

Dr. Will, I've got my fingers crossed for you!

 

[skyhawkd]

Dr Will... I too feel the stress of this application process. My life has been joyless and depressing since January. But don't give into despair, look for the better things to come.

 

[barb]

Dr. Will, I am totally feeling your pain. This is my second time applying and it's not looking too good for me right now. 3 waitlists (including MCP) and no acceptances. Right now it seems like everything in my life is pretty sucky - no money, no prospects, etc. If I could just get accepted somewhere, anywhere, it would all be worth it. I hope good things will come soon for all of us who are suffering through the painful process.

 

[Explosivo]

I know what you're feeling. You feel awful. I myself felt the same way last year in June after I got my final rejection. So much so that coupled with the AMCAS fiasco I decided to skip the 2001-2002 application cycle and take a break. One of the best decisions I ever made. Don't get too broken up over a final rejection letter if you get one. For me, I actually felt some relief when the last one came in. It meant I could move on with other things and then come back to medicine if I still wanted to later. Well, it's one year later and now I'm back and applying again.

 

[Toejam]

I've got you all beat!

I've wanted to be a doctor since 1984. I didn't get my ducks in the right row until 1993 and ended up going to podiatry school because nobody else would have me. Now, I've retaken the MCAT and have reapplied to MD and DO schools.

Let's see....I've been waiting for...18 years! And, not only do people think I'd make a great doctor, they say that I AM a great doctor!! (just not the right kind, in my opinion).

It's an incredible arduous process. Stay focused and keep at it even if nothing happens this year!

 

[Tweetie_bird]

you are not going to believe this....but I was reading this thread and i literally have tears in my eyes. I want this so much for you all. I really do.

I am currently waiting for my MCAT scores, which I don't think I did well in. I am really just waiting to find out that I got 7's. And then I can move on. I don't think I want to take the MCAT again. Like a fool I will apply with endless hope that I can get into schools with a 3.35 and 7's. I can't. Yet, I will do it just to prove to myself that it *can't* be done. In all this struggle, I am realizing how much we really need each other. Especially to those of us out there in the "real world," working and applying....we don't have a group of other premeds we can hang out with and use their shoulders. I feel alone a lot of times. It's good to have SDN's support in all this.

Anyway, I am rambling. I want you all to get in because I feel that you've paid your dues by waiting this long. I hope God shines his bright smile on you all soon. And I also hope I will never have to go through this. . . AMEN!

Tweetie

 

[Hero]

yes.. so tired.. so drained. but as long as there are friends and families that still believe in me.. the flame will not die.

Medicine or bust!
<img src="http://members.aon.at/~fschern1/never-give-up.gif" alt=" - " />

 

[Hero]

SMW: have you heard anything from OHSU?

 

[KKay999]

•••quote:•••Originally posted by calbears84:
•dr. will,
you cannot get to the rainbow without putting up with the rain. put your trust in the Lord. He knows what is best for you.•••••I just want to expand a little on what Calbears said. I don't know how many people are religious in this thread but I'm going to say this anyway. I have gone through exactly what you guys are going through, TWICE. I have applied to medical school three times. This year I have been blessed with 4 acceptances and 1 wait-list. The first two years of applying I had to rely heavily on my faith. I know it's hard now, but you just have to believe that God has a master plan for all of you. I was bummed when I didn't get in the first two times also, but looking back I think that taking these two years off has been the best thing for me. I was able to get a lot of exposure to the pharmaceucitcal industry, save money, and just live a little before going back to school. Everything happens for a reason. All of your trials will only make you stronger, and when you do get in, you will have a totally new perspective on life. It will make you a better physician. If it's meant for you to go into medicine, it will happen on HIS time. Keep your heads up!

 

[oldman]

•••quote:•••Originally posted by Jadeite:
•It's really hard what we Med School applicant people have to go through - all of our friends/family/complete strangers telling us we're the absolute perfect doctor and that they're *SURE* we'll get in somewhere... then having to tell everyone we're only on hold lists, and we're not sure where you'll be going... And they ask all the time... Oh, and that way your heart speeds up when you hear the mail truck... or the phone rings... I'm sure *THAT'S* not healthy either.

But then again, there's a point to the madness, I suppose you could argue that those of us waiting to hear from the waitlist will probably be better doctors than those who got in immediately without a struggle. We REALLY want to go to medical school. We won't take anything for granted, and furthermore, we know something of what it is to deal with stress, anxiety and disapointment.

Uh-oh. I think I hear the mail!

Jade~•••••are you saying those of us who got in early don't appreciate our acceptances? i certainly do! i didn't imagine i would have as much luck as i did.

 

[isidella]

I am having some serious MCAT anxiety. I used to think (Yesterday) that it didn't matter so much what I got, that my other stellar :wink: credentials would carry me through. But now I am not so sure. I think I may even go against all of my morals and feed the AAMC monkey to get my scores early. Its making me a little sick to my stomach. . .

 

[oldman]

•••quote:•••Originally posted by isidella:
•I am having some serious MCAT anxiety. I used to think (Yesterday) that it didn't matter so much what I got, that my other stellar :wink: credentials would carry me through. But now I am not so sure. I think I may even go against all of my morals and feed the AAMC monkey to get my scores early. Its making me a little sick to my stomach. . .•••••there's nothing you can do about your score at this point, just forget about it until the envelope arrives.

 

[Jadeite]

•••quote:•••Originally posted by oldman:
are you saying those of us who got in early don't appreciate our acceptances? i certainly do! i didn't imagine i would have as much luck as i did.[/QB]••••Of course that's not what I'm saying. I'm just suggesting that I know I for one am going to go all kinds of nutty when, and if, I get in. It's that dramatic effect, you know, the hero (no pun intended) is down, looks like he's not going to make it... and then! Whammo! An acceptance, and it's off to find an apartment in city X. I mean, if they were going to make Medical School Acceptance into a (really long, boring) movie they wouldn't have the protagonist get in to his first choice immediately.

Jade~

 

[SMW]

•••quote:•••Originally posted by Hero:
•SMW: have you heard anything from OHSU?•••••Rejected Looks like I'll be in NYC, unless the unbelievable happens and I get in off the UW AK-WWAMI waitlist.

 

[Dr. Will]

Thanks for all your replies everyone. For a while I thought I was the only one losing it from this horrible process. I wish everyone else in the same situation much luck also. We all deserve to go to medschool, and I hope everyone gets some good news soon.

And I, like some people who responded, believe there is some master plan for me. What it is, I have no idea. But I hope it's what I have in mind. Uh oh! Mail-man is here. Good luck all!

 

[brickmanli]

This reminds me of a story I read somewhere last month, you put a frog in a bowl of cream and it looks hopeless, but then the frog jumped out. How come? It was struggling so hard with its legs that cream became butter.

Nothing is really hopeless. I think the fact that you're always trying will make you a better doctor than me. I have a friend who reapplied five times before finally getting in, he got game.

Try to enjoy your summer guys, do all you possibly can by sending in your letters of intents and whatnot, and then just try to forget about it.

 

[Tweetie_bird]

•••quote:•••Originally posted by brickmanli:
•This reminds me of a story I read somewhere last month, you put a frog in a bowl of cream and it looks hopeless, but then the frog jumped out. How come? It was struggling so hard with its legs that cream became butter.
.•••••That's a really good (symbolic) story, Brick.

 

[candybits]

Some of you have the most amazing things to say... I only wish that I found this site a long time ago, while I was going through what I can recall as the most difficult point in my life. I'd lost my job, I was temporarily rooming with my best friend's tiny 1-bdrm apt, constantly looking for another job and being rejected in that department as well, and the worst of all, receving a rejection letter EVERYDAY (that's 12 letters in total!) during this one week in early May. I was so ready to give up on everything... I'd picked up smoking again (and I'd been so very good for the past 3 years!!!) and just didn't know how to handle it. But when I finally got a letter from McGill about 3 weeks ago, I guess everything changed around. I was ecstatic beyond words...

Now I'm so ever grateful for everything that's happened. I mean, I applied to 18 schools, never even heard from 14 schools... Guys, hang in there and keep pushing for it if this is really what you want!

 

[The Philosopher]

Doc Will, I know what you're sayin man.

For God's sake, i haven't even applied yet, and I'm damn near burnt out to a crisp. I had this history paper due on may 10th and still haven't turned the damn thing in cuz my brain is fried like bacon....anyway, i'm sure he's gonna take points off when i turn it in...I got an MS for a grade....