I'm actually excited (though atm I'm a little tired and want to quit my job already
). I did do an SMP so I feel like I have an idea of the difficulty of the classes. I think one of the things that surprised me wasn't the difficulty of the classes but the fakeness? of some of the people. One guy said he was an auditory learner and didn't need to take notes, and how much his profs loved him and wanted to hook him up with research projects/great rec letters/etc. He made it seem so easy but then I saw him retaking histo... I don't really understand why people need to psych other people out; that's probably going to be my least favorite part of school/rotations/etc.
I'm doing everything I can to be prepared for the classes (going through the links at the top of this forum - the helpful links stickied one and bookmarking the seemingly useful ones) - figuring out how to study for classes, i.e. which programs to use (EverNote is a work in progress), looking over the book list they just gave out/etc.
I know it's weird, but I feel like I'm going to enjoy my time at school because I worked so hard to get to that point. Honestly with all the other cr*p I've had to go through to get here, it's basically going to be less stressful imo. I know the classes will be hard, some profs will be great, some suck, rotations will be variable, and I still have a long way to go, but if I adopt the attitude that everything sucks til I'm a doctor, I'm going to be a very unhappy person for 4+ years. I'd rather go in with the attitude yes it will be hard, yes some things I won't like, but now everything is a lot more relevant because you can apply it to patients. The better you feel about it, positive attitude, taking care of yourself usually translates to better learning = being a better doctor.
I hope to god I won't fall in love with one of the ROAD specialties, cause I think that's going to be a whole other beast. I'd rather do the best I can, get a good residency, and enjoy what I do than stress out/complain about how bad I have it for the next few years. At the end of the day you know what even if I end up in FM/love FM I'm still gonna be a doctor.
I'm not gonna lie, I had it pretty hard before this, so this is like a dream come true for me. I'm probably gonna get flamed for some of the optimism in my post but there you have it
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