DrLady, don't feel like a failure. I know how you feel because I am not doing very hot either. I have taken 6 diag tests and my scores are also too embarrassing to post. And I too studied like crazy this summer. Only now do I realize that its not how much I study, but how much I apply the knowledge that I already know to the test. Right now I am at the library, doing passage after passage. For me, I am just going to try my hardest, and be confident, which is the most important thing, and take the exam this Saturday. I have realized that having confidence is the most important part of taking the MCAT because my scores have improved when I tell myself its just a test, not something that will impair me for life. For me, the reasons I am going to take the exam, even though my scores are not so great are as follows:
1) For experience and getting a feel in the high tension environment.
2) Because I studied so much this summer, I feel like I owe it to myself to at least take the exam.
3) If I really feel like I did not do so great on the exam, then I can always void it.
4) Plus I already paid $180.00 for the dam exam and if I were to get a refund I would only get $80.00 back.
5) In addition, med schools like to see improvment, so if I take the MCAT again, I know I will do a lot better and I will be better prepared for it next time.
So, I hope this helps. I know its frustrating, but we cannot give up!
By the way, is anyone as frustrated as I am when trying to log into this program? I had to change my user name 3 times to post material.