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Hello everyone,
Finally gathering up the courage to air one of my biggest insecurities on the internet. Here goes nothing...
Throughout college, I was a part of an 8 year BS/MD program. I loved the program, and I have no regrets about being a part of it, nor do I have any hard feelings. One of the heavily emphasized perks of the program was that the guarantee meant the students did not have to "think like applicants," which frees them up to pursue non-medical interests and hobbies. I was young, immature, and I took the "don't think like an applicant" thing a bit too far. I got lackadaisical about my schoolwork because I only needed to maintain a minimum GPA. I did not seek out help from my professors because I felt like I did not need to. I did not pursue very much volunteering or research, because I wasn't a real applicant, so I figured I didn't need it as much. This was, of course, a TERRIBLE attitude to have, and not the attitude that the program wished to foster. I wish more than anything that I could go back in time and smack my former self upside the head!
My GPA ultimately went below the minimum--I was so carefree early on in undergrad that I had no cushion once my coursework got more demanding, plus I did not apply myself the way I should have. I was then dismissed from the program my senior year. I honestly think that dismissal was one of the best gifts anyone could have given me. I needed the wake-up call and medical school would have eaten me alive, had I been allowed to matriculate.
Now, two years out of undergrad, I've found myself needing to "think like an applicant"--and it has been so fulfilling that I feel more motivated now then I ever have before. I work full-time doing clinical research that I love (with several publications and presentations, not to mention amazing clinical experience), I am getting a Master's in bioethics part-time in the evenings, and I spend the rest of my free time doing volunteer work and other constructive activities. Thinking like an applicant has not been about checking off boxes on an AMCAS form--it has helped me to understand what life I am signing myself up for, and made me feel more secure and confident that I really want to do this. Plus, I've had a ton of time to acknowledge why I went wrong and what I would do to make sure it never happened again.
I think I will end up with a decent application, with one weak link: my abysmal undergraduate science GPA of 3.04. (My cumulative GPA was slightly higher--a 3.45.) I got some As, a few Cs, but mostly just a ton of Bs because I didn't push myself. I feel like my grades are not a reflection of my intelligence or capability, and if I had the opportunity to re-take the classes (my undergrad school does not allow retakes of C or above), I know I could have done much better, especially having lost the complacent attitude I used to have. I have an okay, well-balanced MCAT score (30) so I know that I am not completely incompetent in science.
How should I address this on my application? I feel like that GPA is going to be a humongous sore spot on my application, but I also feel like there aren't a ton of applicants in my exact situation and I want to be able to explain. I want to prove to medical schools that I am intellectually capable of handling the workload, especially now that I've taken time off to learn and majorly grow up. I know that I probably shouldn't mention it directly in the personal statement--right?? Perhaps I should just bring it up in the section for academic hardship?
(Oh, and for anyone suggesting this, I am not in a financial position to be able to do a Special Masters Program...the only reason I can afford the Master's I am getting right now is due to a very generous employee benefit. I am in quite a bit of debt from college and I'm trying to be as financially conservative as possible.)
Do you think that someone reading my application would take my situation seriously? How should I delicately address it and establish that I am not the same person now as I was back then? I know that, without some sort of justification, that terrible sGPA will get me passed over pretty much everywhere, and even with the justification, it still might.
TL; DR: Was in a BS/MD program in undergrad, bad complacent attitude about being guaranteed into medical school --> bad GPA --> dismissal, time off and research work/activities --> more maturity, how to address this disparity and prove that I really am capable, and not have my GPA dictate the tone of my entire application?
Sorry for the epic novel of a post. Thank you to anyone who may have read or who cares to give feedback, it is much appreciated! (By the way, no need to point out that I was a complete idiot as an undergrad, because I am already keenly aware of that! Just trying to make my dream happen by moving forward in spite of previous bad life choices.)
Finally gathering up the courage to air one of my biggest insecurities on the internet. Here goes nothing...
Throughout college, I was a part of an 8 year BS/MD program. I loved the program, and I have no regrets about being a part of it, nor do I have any hard feelings. One of the heavily emphasized perks of the program was that the guarantee meant the students did not have to "think like applicants," which frees them up to pursue non-medical interests and hobbies. I was young, immature, and I took the "don't think like an applicant" thing a bit too far. I got lackadaisical about my schoolwork because I only needed to maintain a minimum GPA. I did not seek out help from my professors because I felt like I did not need to. I did not pursue very much volunteering or research, because I wasn't a real applicant, so I figured I didn't need it as much. This was, of course, a TERRIBLE attitude to have, and not the attitude that the program wished to foster. I wish more than anything that I could go back in time and smack my former self upside the head!
My GPA ultimately went below the minimum--I was so carefree early on in undergrad that I had no cushion once my coursework got more demanding, plus I did not apply myself the way I should have. I was then dismissed from the program my senior year. I honestly think that dismissal was one of the best gifts anyone could have given me. I needed the wake-up call and medical school would have eaten me alive, had I been allowed to matriculate.
Now, two years out of undergrad, I've found myself needing to "think like an applicant"--and it has been so fulfilling that I feel more motivated now then I ever have before. I work full-time doing clinical research that I love (with several publications and presentations, not to mention amazing clinical experience), I am getting a Master's in bioethics part-time in the evenings, and I spend the rest of my free time doing volunteer work and other constructive activities. Thinking like an applicant has not been about checking off boxes on an AMCAS form--it has helped me to understand what life I am signing myself up for, and made me feel more secure and confident that I really want to do this. Plus, I've had a ton of time to acknowledge why I went wrong and what I would do to make sure it never happened again.
I think I will end up with a decent application, with one weak link: my abysmal undergraduate science GPA of 3.04. (My cumulative GPA was slightly higher--a 3.45.) I got some As, a few Cs, but mostly just a ton of Bs because I didn't push myself. I feel like my grades are not a reflection of my intelligence or capability, and if I had the opportunity to re-take the classes (my undergrad school does not allow retakes of C or above), I know I could have done much better, especially having lost the complacent attitude I used to have. I have an okay, well-balanced MCAT score (30) so I know that I am not completely incompetent in science.
How should I address this on my application? I feel like that GPA is going to be a humongous sore spot on my application, but I also feel like there aren't a ton of applicants in my exact situation and I want to be able to explain. I want to prove to medical schools that I am intellectually capable of handling the workload, especially now that I've taken time off to learn and majorly grow up. I know that I probably shouldn't mention it directly in the personal statement--right?? Perhaps I should just bring it up in the section for academic hardship?
(Oh, and for anyone suggesting this, I am not in a financial position to be able to do a Special Masters Program...the only reason I can afford the Master's I am getting right now is due to a very generous employee benefit. I am in quite a bit of debt from college and I'm trying to be as financially conservative as possible.)
Do you think that someone reading my application would take my situation seriously? How should I delicately address it and establish that I am not the same person now as I was back then? I know that, without some sort of justification, that terrible sGPA will get me passed over pretty much everywhere, and even with the justification, it still might.
TL; DR: Was in a BS/MD program in undergrad, bad complacent attitude about being guaranteed into medical school --> bad GPA --> dismissal, time off and research work/activities --> more maturity, how to address this disparity and prove that I really am capable, and not have my GPA dictate the tone of my entire application?
Sorry for the epic novel of a post. Thank you to anyone who may have read or who cares to give feedback, it is much appreciated! (By the way, no need to point out that I was a complete idiot as an undergrad, because I am already keenly aware of that! Just trying to make my dream happen by moving forward in spite of previous bad life choices.)