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[moo]

I hate this process. I hate relying on profs to write letters and then when they're done only to find out they've gone on vacation and can't reach them. Or, take my case, where one of my profs just gave birth and now I'm having a tough time reaching her (she reassured me before she gave birth that she'd still be around and that I'd have no trouble reaching her.) I hate AMCAS. I hate writing these secondaries. I hate this whole thing.

I just wanna say thanks to everyone on this board who's making this process a little bit easier. From those just lending a little support, to those providing valuable emails and information, thanks. I try my best everyday to contribute to this board and I know you all do too. Good luck everyone. We're in for one rough year.

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[Resident Alien]

I feel you there moo.
All my professors are either on vacation or procrastinating, and I am the one who's pissing his pants off
The questions on my secondaries have bogged me down so much that i dont feel passionate about anything anymore .. i just hope this wears off so i finish the damn stuff.
Hope every thing goes well, best of luck!

 

[Scooby Doo]

You know what I have found helps...
Finding one thing that is really good each day and every time I feel bad..i just keep saying "well, at least..."

So today, I always drive to work and there is this HUGE freaking pothole that I ALWAYS seem to drive over...Or I have to swerve kind of to avoid it. Such a freaking pain in the a$$! So today I am driving and low and behold, the City of Oakland decided to fill it! It's amazing! They filled this pothole after me driving through it for the past 2 months! Ah, such nice things...
Oh, I also decided to take a week off from doing all secondaries...just to relax. I recommend it

 

[Georgey]

I think we're all feeling your sentiments, moo. This whole process is excruciating. I too come to this board everyday for some relief. Many times I have come to the point where I feel like I'm going to stop all efforts towards my applications. I have 80% of my secondaries completed and the rest, at times, just do not seem worth it to me to finish. I feel like they all should have been done a month ago. Coming here and learning that others feel the same pain keeps me going. Thanks all.

 

[moo]

Thanks everyone. My life seems to be revolving around secondaries and going to work to pay for the secondaries. To make things worse, I come to work, only to have my clientale bitch and nag at me all day long (I work in a psych hospital. In fact, that's where I am right now, finishing up my shift.) begging for more cigarettes or acting out like children. Kinda reminds me of ourselves when we bitch and nag at the specialists at AMCAS.

And you know scooby, I know what you mean about the potholes, literally! they patched this one huge pothole up right before I enter the freeway a few months ago and now it's perfect! No more swerving around and risking getting into an accident.

 

[vixen]

i'm in the reapplication process...sometimes i feel like that too, but you have to take a big breath and relax. i have been known to get too caught up in the whole process...it's just not a good thing!

 

[labrynth79]

I feel you moo! Sometimes I really believe that this entire process is taking the life out of me. I started swearing (nothing too bad- "goddamn") and the negativity is just leaking out! but now it's starting to get better. I just think of all the things I need to do, and then I pick up a fun book and start reading. good stress reliever, but none of the work is getting done! oh, well. it's better than tearing my hair out. . . . now off to do some more secondaries. or, start them! argh.

 

[jbfuq]

damn scooby, i almost thought you were living in new orleans talking about the larger-than-life pothole in the road!!! too bad these over on my end never will get fixed.

 

[kmy]

Im really glad you started this thread moo. I have been feeling totally exhausted with all of this. I only applied to 6 schools so I don't have half the secondary load that the rest of you do, but I still find it SO hard to deal with all this crap from AMCAS and all the uncertainty about the process, while keeping a nice chipper motivated attitude as I try to rephrase for the millionth time who I am (which Im not totally sure of - is anyone?) and why I am different and better than everyone else (which I am not pompous enough to actually believe.) So anyways - it's good to vent. I keep staring at a computer screen after work every night trying to squeeze out an essay or two and I can't concentrate because I am thinking that these should have been done weeks ago. This is a very trying process, more so for us this year. I really am starting to believe that medical school will be the easiest part of all this. Id much rather be buried in a textbook right now than buried in these secondaries with an uneasy feeling about AMCAS and the application process as a whole. I just keep reminding myself that someday months from now the boards will be flooded with posts about acceptances and all of this will seem like a battle scar we all *itch and moan about proudly to those than come after us!!! Good luck all.

 

[algae]

After a long day of essay writing I came across this personal statement. I may use it for my own!
http://www.bluemoon.net/~watson/college.htm

 

[sandflea]

algae, isn't that the best essay? someone emailed it to me about 5 years ago--it's been circulating the internet for quite a while. if it's true, you really have to hand it to someone who has the guts to submit an essay like that.

hang in there, everyone. once we're all accepted we'll all look back at this process and laugh about it.

 

[elle]

I remember reading that essay when I was applying to college...

 

[Smoke This]

Originally posted by moo:
•I hate this process. I hate relying on profs to write letters and then when they're done only to find out they've gone on vacation and can't reach them. Or, take my case, where one of my profs just gave birth and now I'm having a tough time reaching her (she reassured me before she gave birth that she'd still be around and that I'd have no trouble reaching her.) I hate AMCAS. I hate writing these secondaries. I hate this whole thing.

I just wanna say thanks to everyone on this board who's making this process a little bit easier. From those just lending a little support, to those providing valuable emails and information, thanks. I try my best everyday to contribute to this board and I know you all do too. Good luck everyone. We're in for one rough year.•

Word.

moo, it sounds like you and I are caught in a similar rec letter debacle. I am still missing two letters in my "file", and so my premed committee will not write a composite letter or take any steps at all to send my letters to schools. To top it all off, I'm getting secondaries now (namely NWern and Loyola Chicago) with strict deadlines, and I'm really starting to wonder how I'm going to meet them with this letter thing.

This has really taken the spirit out of me and consequently, it's been weeks since I worked on secondaries. I've got a pile big enough to kindle a four-alarm fire.

We're all stressed, and I have to say this board is a big reason I'm still sane. I second that about helping each other out. Thank you all.

 

[moo]

Smoke this,

This is what I mean. Knowing that there are other people out there, going thru exactly the same thing you are. That you are not alone! It means a lot to this premed. Thanks.