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I feel so depressed during my MS3. This is my last rotation. It feels like a drag. I don't have a problem when I'm working but waking up int he morning is so difficult. I had a recent break up with 2yr serious relationship that I wasn't prepared for. I'm living alone in the city as a medical student fending myself. I had to move around the city 3-4x because of varying issues...that took a toll on me. However, the biggest struggle is I'm not happy anymore. I wonder why I'm here and doing this if I'm not happy. Of course, I enjoy it when I'm learning at rotation.
Before this rotation, it was obgyn, which was okay but before then during the brutal winter of north, I had surgery. I was totally depressed. However, now it's not because of work and surgery. My attending gives me assignments and work as if I'm his resident because he doesn't have a resident. However, I need to study for CK and I have barely anytime for that. Plus, when I come home I'm super exhausted, I don't focus and study for CK or do any research that the attending asked me to look up.
I've been getting plenty of parking tickets in this stupid city...that amounts to 50, 75...etc per ticket and has accumulated to over $600-700 worth. I would gladly pay every month for a stupid parking space but there is none here! My sister recently got married, and then had an abusive relationship. We were living together and we were both going through a lot... Then, she decided to amend things and go back and I was unhappy with her decision...but that I've let go of and moved on....
And to top it off, I see my ex everyday at the hospital and I can't take it anymore.
I can't afford to be depressed because I need to focus on CK that's coming in Aug. I don't have the leisure to do so. I pretend to be happy but it's not helping. I can't pretend anymore.
Last friday, I went out with a guy, it was fun. But I knew I wasn't interested in him nor did I trust him. Nor did I want to do anything except just hang out...and roam around the city. I just saw the person as a friend.
What do I do?
I know this is a forum for only medical career prep, but this is affecting my career now and I wanted to know if anyone had any similar situation? If so, what did you do?
Before this rotation, it was obgyn, which was okay but before then during the brutal winter of north, I had surgery. I was totally depressed. However, now it's not because of work and surgery. My attending gives me assignments and work as if I'm his resident because he doesn't have a resident. However, I need to study for CK and I have barely anytime for that. Plus, when I come home I'm super exhausted, I don't focus and study for CK or do any research that the attending asked me to look up.
I've been getting plenty of parking tickets in this stupid city...that amounts to 50, 75...etc per ticket and has accumulated to over $600-700 worth. I would gladly pay every month for a stupid parking space but there is none here! My sister recently got married, and then had an abusive relationship. We were living together and we were both going through a lot... Then, she decided to amend things and go back and I was unhappy with her decision...but that I've let go of and moved on....
And to top it off, I see my ex everyday at the hospital and I can't take it anymore.
I can't afford to be depressed because I need to focus on CK that's coming in Aug. I don't have the leisure to do so. I pretend to be happy but it's not helping. I can't pretend anymore.
Last friday, I went out with a guy, it was fun. But I knew I wasn't interested in him nor did I trust him. Nor did I want to do anything except just hang out...and roam around the city. I just saw the person as a friend.
What do I do?
I know this is a forum for only medical career prep, but this is affecting my career now and I wanted to know if anyone had any similar situation? If so, what did you do?