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I know that medical students and some non-stipended grad students hate their student loans and the reality of debt.
For me, I'm scared of debt because it's reinforcing how I've been a marionette to people other than myself my whole life. I'm a Russian Jew whose parents helicoptered me. I don't have a car (a major determinant of my worth and status) and I never had disposable income (I was mandated to just study). I'm 21 and can't freely go places as my parents have the cars during the day. How humiliating at my age! To think I'd be continuing this way into my mid-20's??? For me, the HPSP scholarship is a chance to finally gain liberty for myself- a stipend!, A wage as an officer!, No med school debt!! I tear up imagining what my life could be if I get the scholarship. I would have a chance to finally have a lease on my own life. To help the lives of veterans and active duty is another passion of mine that entices me to work as a doctor in the armed forces.
The issue is the medical requirements to join the military (I'm interested in Air Force). I successfully recovered from an acute OCD episode one year ago. One year ago, I was placed on a high dose of Zoloft and began therapy. I took Zoloft for six months, and then I recovered. A year later, I'm relapsing. From a scale of one to ten I'm at a level 12 of pain; I can't get these delusions out of my head and no amount of high intensity exercise is helping. I desperately need to be back on medication again, but I don't want to jeopardize my HPSP opportunities. It's incredibly unfortunate that my illness prohibits me from getting the most out of my life. I'm trying. I'm fighting. OCD is the biggest challenge I've ever faced in my life. But I'm just not strong enough this time. I'm holding on for dear life.
Does anyone know of any other loan repayment programs and is willing to speak about them? When did you enter them, what the obligations are, etc.
For me, I'm scared of debt because it's reinforcing how I've been a marionette to people other than myself my whole life. I'm a Russian Jew whose parents helicoptered me. I don't have a car (a major determinant of my worth and status) and I never had disposable income (I was mandated to just study). I'm 21 and can't freely go places as my parents have the cars during the day. How humiliating at my age! To think I'd be continuing this way into my mid-20's??? For me, the HPSP scholarship is a chance to finally gain liberty for myself- a stipend!, A wage as an officer!, No med school debt!! I tear up imagining what my life could be if I get the scholarship. I would have a chance to finally have a lease on my own life. To help the lives of veterans and active duty is another passion of mine that entices me to work as a doctor in the armed forces.
The issue is the medical requirements to join the military (I'm interested in Air Force). I successfully recovered from an acute OCD episode one year ago. One year ago, I was placed on a high dose of Zoloft and began therapy. I took Zoloft for six months, and then I recovered. A year later, I'm relapsing. From a scale of one to ten I'm at a level 12 of pain; I can't get these delusions out of my head and no amount of high intensity exercise is helping. I desperately need to be back on medication again, but I don't want to jeopardize my HPSP opportunities. It's incredibly unfortunate that my illness prohibits me from getting the most out of my life. I'm trying. I'm fighting. OCD is the biggest challenge I've ever faced in my life. But I'm just not strong enough this time. I'm holding on for dear life.
Does anyone know of any other loan repayment programs and is willing to speak about them? When did you enter them, what the obligations are, etc.