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Hey Everybody! I made a new account to post this because at least a few people on here know where I work and I didn't want that linked to this. I'm pgy3 now and up until this point, I've never had anything that was this emotionally taxing on me. I mean yeah I've had plenty of tough cases and bad loses but this is something else.
It's a fairly complicated situation and I'm trying to keep it generic but we've had a patient under our care for awhile now. This patient is incredibly sick. The person with power of attorney and refuses to sign a DNR and keeps insisting we do everything in our power. It's a close relative and he/she wants us to do whatever we can for her (nothing at this point beyond barely keeping her alive and he knows this). I understand where this is coming from and I'm thankful I'm not in that position but the patient is clearly suffering - told the attending "let me die". But of course he won't. He can't.
I know it's crazy to say this but up until this point, I loved my job. I even loved my job as an intern. I'm supposed to hate being a resident but didn't. I do now though. I can't sleep because I know I'm going to have to go round on this patient in the morning. When I'm working on another case I can usually keep it out of my mind just because I know I have to or something bad could happen but any minute I have of down time, I start thinking about it. I'm miserable. I just feel helpless. I've been on this case since admission, I've scrubbed in every surgery, I have the chart memorized, every change in the past 2 months, yet there's nothing I can do. Nothing any of us can do.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? How did you cope?
It's a fairly complicated situation and I'm trying to keep it generic but we've had a patient under our care for awhile now. This patient is incredibly sick. The person with power of attorney and refuses to sign a DNR and keeps insisting we do everything in our power. It's a close relative and he/she wants us to do whatever we can for her (nothing at this point beyond barely keeping her alive and he knows this). I understand where this is coming from and I'm thankful I'm not in that position but the patient is clearly suffering - told the attending "let me die". But of course he won't. He can't.
I know it's crazy to say this but up until this point, I loved my job. I even loved my job as an intern. I'm supposed to hate being a resident but didn't. I do now though. I can't sleep because I know I'm going to have to go round on this patient in the morning. When I'm working on another case I can usually keep it out of my mind just because I know I have to or something bad could happen but any minute I have of down time, I start thinking about it. I'm miserable. I just feel helpless. I've been on this case since admission, I've scrubbed in every surgery, I have the chart memorized, every change in the past 2 months, yet there's nothing I can do. Nothing any of us can do.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? How did you cope?