I'm a long time lurker and am posting for the first time this AM hoping to realize that someone has been here too... I'm done with English, Math (Statistics only!), Biology, General Chemistry, and Physics (after my final today!) but continue to feel defeated by Organic Chemistry for years now... Took Orgo I two years ago and managed a B+. Then, failed Orgo II - I was severely depressed and thus failed, and/or was failing and thus became depressed. Completely freaked out about the F and registered for Orgo II again immediately without treating my depression - couldn't go to class and had to Withdraw ): This was last year. This semester I am in the class again but am not doing well either. C- on first exam, B- on second exam. Couldn't go to class for third exam and missed the final as well yesterday. Haven't spoken to my professor about it either because I'm too afraid of the consequence...I feel so phony having an excuse the third time around, like who'd believe me. I'm living at home and my little sister came out with her cutting habit this semester and I keep feeling responsible as the ER and CPS visits pile up; my father lost two family members and became so sick (he is 60 and has hypertension/diabetes). The anxiety is killing me but I'm so so so ashamed I can't even tell my therapist. Can anyone just share something to make me a little happy perhaps?