Dear friends,
I just started my first year of medical school..I feel overwhelmed.
Few thoughts;
- I feel like everyone seems to do better than me...
- I doubt myself because I was never good in the hard sciences.
Did anyone have similair feelings in first year?
What did you tell yourself to keep going?
Can you tell me how you scheduled your time on a daily basis?
Hello there,
Currently a first year too, and tbh, I'm doing so well! Everything is so easy.
...see how easy that was to tell you? How did you feel? I'm sure you didn't feel great at all.
The truth is I was lying; I've felt and feel the same way most of the time. And a lot of people around you feel the same way. You're not alone.
It's really easy to put on a façade, and it's really easy to lie, to say everything is great, and easy, and simple, and there's no challenge. I know these people, the ones who, for them, it's cake because it just so happens they researched everything in undergrad. While you can't change those people, you can change your mindset on things. Things can be great in the long run. Right now, you're thinking it seems like a lot.
And it is.
What's most important is to stop comparing yourself to the others around you. You decide what kind of doctor you want to be. It doesn't matter at this point what you researched, etc. Everyone has experiences in their "past lives" that you have, and continue to reflect on. You don't have to get a 600+ on step. That will come with work. Right now, just concentrate on yourself, stay mentally healthy, and remember to take a break from school once in a while. Do what you think will help you learn best. Nevermind what the others are doing. I had people in my class memorize the entire TCA and urea cycle because, "it was easier to remember the other things if I did the whole thing now". Fine!
Must you do better than anyone else to become the doctor you want to be?
The hard sciences are tough, but consider: how much of it will be used in practice? Study for the tests and then step. Then, the hard sciences fall away slightly to what matters. Mrs. Jones or someone sitting in front of you expecting a caring and compassionate friend who will try their best to heal them, to comfort them.
I have alternating lecture days, and I don't go. I spend my time preparing for the next day. Then when the recorded lectures come out, I Anki them. Then, on the next day, I review those cards all day (because that day has all its tasks done from the prior day)!
Please take care,
C