This is my first post on SDN so I'd really appreciate some honest friendly feedback and guidance. I'm a first generation college student attending University of California. My Father has only studied up to like 7th grade - went to preisting school afterwards. My Mother Barely finished Highschool - my grandparents didn't allow her to continue her education because the only colleges available in the village were coed (they were very conservative indian parents) . I've always been a pretty smart kid - I can read something or listen to something and pick it up pretty fast but even in highschool I was never the one pulling straight A's or anything. Somehow I made it into the university with hard work and perseverance. After I came to university, I was extremely lonely and homesick - as I have never not been without my parents for that long. To top it all off my roommate turns out to be a total b*tch - turning situations and twisting what actually happened into something that would make her seem like a good person. anyways I won't go into the details of that - she was just a total liar. and by the end of first year, I would cry myself to sleep and go home every single weekend. I would be more afraid of coming back to the dorm and seeing her rather than worrying about my upcoming calc/chem midterm. I really tried hard to tell myself that I won't let these stupid social situations affect my work, but First year I ended up with like a 2.0 gpa rounded down - with similar bcpm. I'm a sophmore right now and have definitely moved out into an apartment. Although my roommates now are ok, they're still the party type and can be pretty distracting in general - + they're good friends with my ex-roommate(my roommates are my old suitemates). I just finished my first quarter of my second year with a quarter gpa of 3.2. Next year I'm thinking of moving into my own apartment. Just being around the people who are friends with my ex -roommate (who has visited my apartment 3 times this quarter itself) puts me in a really depressed mood and makes me keep thinking about what a lousy time I had during my first year and how I could have done much better If I was provided with better circumstances. I want to move into my own place - which is right next to campus but my parents are worried that it may not be safe for a 19-year old girl to live by herself. personally although I am passionate about medicine enough to whatever it takes, my parents are worried I'm going to be one of those total loners. I really really need to turn my b's and c's into A's. I want to stay positive and get back on track - and I know I have the potential. I'd really appreciate some honest friendly feedback and guidance. Thanks in Advance.