Thank you so much for your thoughtful response! It's helpful to know that the curriculum is changing. I have some more thoughts. So sorry for the lengthiness. I appreciate you all taking the time to read and respond!
That's definitely an interesting perspective regarding innate programming -- as I unpack a lot of my preconceived notions, I have realized that what I like about myself, and what I don't like about myself, are things I have internalized from my surroundings at impressionable ages. I definitely feel like I am a product of my environment, regardless of what my innate program is, and realizing that is very humbling.
I am also realizing that I am very frustrated with healthcare and medicine, at least as it stands in the United States. I have read so much about medical racism, medical fatphobia, about both subtle and obvious ways in which the healthcare system has not been created for everyone. I have learned about this from my loved ones, the classes that I took for fun, my own research, and the MCAT. I have also learned not take any information for granted, and nearly everything has some level of bias. One of my past professors just told me that pulse oximeters don't always give accurate readings of Black folks' oxygen levels, because the machines weren't designed with more pigmented skin in mind. This is so deeply entrenched!
I have also been frustrated when reading forums on SDN. I don't remember how far back some of these posts were written, but reading things like "if you mention mental illness, the admissions committee might think you're unstable" and "if you are fat, your interviewer might not take you seriously because clearly you don't care about your health," have been very very disappointing. I have read a lot about how the relationship between body type and health is way too complicated to draw any conclusions just by looking at someone's body. I have also read about the prevalence of mental illness in medical school, and throughout medical training, in general -- it seems to be inevitable that there will be doctors who experience mental illness, so why are we filtering out people who are open about it?
What is especially hurtful is that a lot of this feedback is coming from physicians and faculty members -- and even then, I don't judge them for these viewpoints, because all of the ways in which I judged people negatively in the past have to do with my environment.
Also, COVID has illuminated just how dispensable doctors seem to be in the eyes of many Americans, which is really disappointing as well.
All this to say: I am frustrated with the systems in place, and I am wondering if any of you know to what extent current medical school curricula are trying to rectify this, beyond encouraging service. The MCAT Psych/Soc gave me hope, because it was very obvious that a lot of the passages were trying to unpack a lot of this. I don't know anyone who is currently in their later years of medical school. Is there any way that I can have a better understanding of the curriculum besides just internet searches? Might be easier to talk to a person who is currently or has recently experienced it.
Again, thank you so much!