No Paxil under 18? It happens!
I was placed on 30 mg Paxil and 2 mg Ativan to take daily when I was 14 by a psychiatrist who met me for 15 minutes. Followups were with his wife who I think was a nurse that was somehow able to prescribe medicines, never saw the psychiatrist again. I now take the same amount of Paxil, plus 50 mg Seroquel for sleep (which I don't need, but a doctor insisted I take--I'm already a zombie), and 4 mg Ativan daily to avoid going into withdrawal symptoms (the doctor says it's not withdrawals, any bad symptoms I would have going down on it means that I am still anxious underneath this fogginess according to him). Psychiatrists are a real brainy bunch! I couldn't even get him to look at the Ashton Manual on which the British National Formulary is based. The psychiatrists I have seen still believe that long term benzodiazepine use can be stopped over the course of several days in a hospital, ignoring evidence that people who do it that way suffer longer protracted withdrawal syndrome and are more likely to continue using benzodiazepines. Well, they don't really ignore the evidence, they don't want to hear about it unless it comes in a pamphlet alongside a buffet spread of fried chicken the drug reps bring in (yes, that's right I can *see* you all stuffing your faces on the Ruby Tuesday's spread, you don't even try to hide it that well).
So no, I'm not anti-psychiatry based on any propaganda--I'm anti-pscyhiatrist because I am an iatrogenic drug addict addicted to a drug more dangerous and more difficult to withdraw from than any other I can think of including all the street drugs I know of, and for which there is no help from the established medical community to withdraw from, and a drug which has caused me to not be able to remember much of my years since I started high school and which i have to take 4 times a day, and which causes me to have to record EVERYTHING, including video recording myself taking my medication because my recall is *that* bad and I truly don't know what I did in the day unless I look back on pictures and video. I have to rest much of the day, the smallest things exhaust me.
You might wonder why I ever saw a psychiatrist if I hate them so much. I was a kid with what I believe was a conversion disorder. I knew I was gay. And I was terrified someone would find out. I wouldn't even let myself think about it. Being gay where I was was worse than being the anti-christ. I was afraid I would raise my hand in school and accidentally blurt out I'm gay and that I would be killed by someone if they knew. You had to know the time and place to know that fear wasn't entirely irrational.
So the psychiatrist was the first person I told. During that 15 minutes he told me never to talk about it until I was in college. That people could get killed for saying stuff like that. Great advice doc!
I'm not looking for help--just pointing out that you don't need a propaganda machine to fuel fears of psychiatry, you all are doing the work of the anti-psychiatry groups all on your own. Again, I am not looking for help. The help comes from other accidental benzo addicts, and people like Professor Heather Ashton. They are the only ones helping. They help each other undo what psychiatry did to them.
So yes, if I am a patient of yours, I will reflect the values of the anti-psychiatry movement, which has nothing to do with the ridiculous and bizarre teachings of scientology, who believe that the evil that lies in psychiatry has existed for billions of years. Their efforts marginalize those who truly want reforms, such as those that exist in Great Britain now, which has done the most work of any country on behalf of those patients prescribed benzodiazepines inappropriately.