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So I ended my 1 year relationship with my girlfriend (lesbians) yesterday and I'm heartbroken. We both mutually agreed on it and decided the best decision was to end things because I needed to focus on my undergrad studies while she wanted to still be a kid and experience life in that regard. She legitimately did state she needed to feel like a kid again and that she feels too adult around me. I still love her so much and I know she does too, but I needed to make this decision to be my own real person without feeling like I'm babysitting her. I was feeling it for a couple months but pushed through because I feel so strongly about her, but the anxious feeling in my stomach never went away and I knew I needed to do it.
What I'm scared of is the fact that I have that same anxious feeling in my stomach when I think about school. I'm scared that after making that huge decision that I know was right, that I won't even feel passionate about medicine like I did before, or that I was lying to myself like I was about my relationship. I want to be a doctor, I'm studying to be, I'm taking the MCAT soon, but I'm just scared it's not right in how my relationship wasn't right. I'm really lost right now. My whole life I knew I wanted to be a doctor, I've been studying through everything, but my self confidence sucks hard and kind of just need someone to talk to. I'm in a research project and a club director, but right now I feel so horrible. I need some sort of reassurance, or more of a reassurance that I need to suck it up. Any help is appreciated. Thank you.
What I'm scared of is the fact that I have that same anxious feeling in my stomach when I think about school. I'm scared that after making that huge decision that I know was right, that I won't even feel passionate about medicine like I did before, or that I was lying to myself like I was about my relationship. I want to be a doctor, I'm studying to be, I'm taking the MCAT soon, but I'm just scared it's not right in how my relationship wasn't right. I'm really lost right now. My whole life I knew I wanted to be a doctor, I've been studying through everything, but my self confidence sucks hard and kind of just need someone to talk to. I'm in a research project and a club director, but right now I feel so horrible. I need some sort of reassurance, or more of a reassurance that I need to suck it up. Any help is appreciated. Thank you.