This thread has been reported by several members due to the statement by the OP about self-harm. SDN takes such statements seriously and we would like to remind the OP and all posters that SDN should not serve as a place to obtain counseling or other advice regarding serious psychological issues. Anyone who is contemplating harming themselves should immediately seek professional counseling advice, not rely on SDN or other non-professional resources.
Members who have serious concerns about their career and would like to post details more anonymously may do so in the Confidential Consult forum.
At this time, given the nature of the thread and the concerns expressed, the moderation and advisory staff of SDN will close this thread.