it's anticlimactic to say the least. during the match ceremony other people were celebrating, high 5iving, etc. i was glad too i got my residency that i wanted but i'm looking at the big picture here. chances are some of the people jumping up and down out of sheer joy are gonna bail on their residency in one or more years or get kicked out for whatever reason. i bet the residents and attendings who post here about how much they don't like it anymore were just as happy when they matched too.
then today, as a 4th year on the chillest rotation ever, i leave early at noon and greeting me is a gorgeous day, sun's shinning, weather's perfect. i grab a nice cool drink and sit in an outdoor cafe and just chill. no obligations whatsoever. but can't totally relax cuz i know that in a few short months i'm gonna be getting intern'ed. it won't matter how nice the day is outside, i'll be grunt working it in a hospital, 24hour call and all. day after day to move up the hierarchy so i can finally "make it". like every other M.D. down this same well trodden path. man, sometimes i think it's all rigged. this career relies on our egos to not settle and keep going. getting your M.D. isn't enough, you gotta do residency--->just doing an internship isn't enough, you gotta finish your residency for it to mean anything---->finishing residency isn't enough, you're not relevent until you're board certified and officially on facutly--->you're just junior faculty, you gotta...round and round we go.
sometimes i seriously feel like calling up my residency and telling them i change my mind. give my position to some desperate unmatched FMG (or AMG) who's life and self-worth revolves around this dog and pony show. i'm done. i got my M.D. and i'll do something with it where i can still sit out on a beautiful day like this with no obligations...perpetual 4th year bliss style. then i realize they now own me as do my loan lenders to the tune of >$200K. gotta keep playing the game to pay(back) the piper...
then today, as a 4th year on the chillest rotation ever, i leave early at noon and greeting me is a gorgeous day, sun's shinning, weather's perfect. i grab a nice cool drink and sit in an outdoor cafe and just chill. no obligations whatsoever. but can't totally relax cuz i know that in a few short months i'm gonna be getting intern'ed. it won't matter how nice the day is outside, i'll be grunt working it in a hospital, 24hour call and all. day after day to move up the hierarchy so i can finally "make it". like every other M.D. down this same well trodden path. man, sometimes i think it's all rigged. this career relies on our egos to not settle and keep going. getting your M.D. isn't enough, you gotta do residency--->just doing an internship isn't enough, you gotta finish your residency for it to mean anything---->finishing residency isn't enough, you're not relevent until you're board certified and officially on facutly--->you're just junior faculty, you gotta...round and round we go.
sometimes i seriously feel like calling up my residency and telling them i change my mind. give my position to some desperate unmatched FMG (or AMG) who's life and self-worth revolves around this dog and pony show. i'm done. i got my M.D. and i'll do something with it where i can still sit out on a beautiful day like this with no obligations...perpetual 4th year bliss style. then i realize they now own me as do my loan lenders to the tune of >$200K. gotta keep playing the game to pay(back) the piper...