Yea at this point im just pissed at the fact that I already did bad in it once. I should have learned from my mistakes and gotten an A this time, but wound up with a C instead. I know this is going to really f*** me in the application cycle, but I am wondering:
To what level will this screw me over? Will they automatically toss my app into the trash?
If you can get an A in physics II, it won't be a deal breaker. But you really really really gotta get that A. Like, you should get Physics II for Dummies or something and spend all summer learning it backwards and forwards before you take the class.
I took grad-level quantum chemistry in my postbac and it was like resurrecting every single demon that wrecked my undergrad GPA: physics, differential equations, linear algebra, the works. (I am NOT a math person. I'm not going to ask why you did poorly in physics because I had C's in I and II, and they were not high C's either.)
It more or less consumed my life, but this was my last chance to prove that I was better at that stuff than my C's in physics would otherwise suggest. And so I bought calculus for dummies, I found more accessible alternate textbooks for certain topics, I did every single problem in the chapters we covered (and those from an older edition of the book as well) and used the solutions manual when I couldn't figure them out, I met with the professor when all that wasn't enough, and I cried when I saw that A. I'm actually getting a little watery-eyed just thinking about that moment.
Basically I learned what it's like to be that OCD premed, a little late maybe, but it was the first time I ever went into a class knowing that:
a) I had no background in a rather advanced subject and my grades in the closest-related coursework were in the bad-worse range
b) my friend, who is brilliant and now works at the CDC, had to retake the class twice to pass
c) my grade would make or break my med school app
So, yeah, sleep and friends could wait until Christmas. The effort was worth it.
Not gonna talk about the MCAT, that's a long ways away and you may just learn this stuff slowly. And I'm not gonna talk about Harvard one way or the other, but who cares, point is you can still be a med student. You can start by studying like one.