I understand the stresses to get good GPA and good MCAT and the sleep lost by the average, typical pre-med student. Sometimes, it goes overboard, and this is sometimes called "pre-med" syndrome. I don't care about strictly maintaining straight As, and I'm not a book worm whatsoever (never have been really)-I have excellent ECs. For some reason, I have trouble sleeping at night. Some nights, I NEVER fall asleep-my eyelids just shut to let them rest. I am constantly anxious about the future, and not just for medical school admissions purposes, but for what I'm going to be once I get accepted (assuming I get in somehwere). I never thought about it when I was little. I'm not sure if its b/c I'm hitting 21 years old and beginning to see the bigger picture, but I constantly ask myself what this is all for-the satisfaction and luxury of an economically stable job?...thats not it. Decades/Centuries from now, my name will be but a dust particle in the wind. I want to do something special-not for myself-but for humanity. But, I'm scared, b/c I fear a limited potential in my intellectual capacity to do something special. I think about this every night. When I die, I want to know that I did something for humanity-whether it was developing some surgical technique that enhances skin graft macthing or something else (doesn't have to change the world). Do I just need to take a break or something at let my emotions reside? B/c the more I ponder this-the more I'll end up at the same dilemma that fooled even Aristotle-purpose of life?