i had some lofty goals of specializing for residency after graduating medical school. however, pds and the nrmp had different ideas, and i have accepted this realization. i know i was not a perfect medical student (translation: 1 failure step 1, 2 failures step 2). however, i did work hard to pass the exams. i am also an american medical school graduate, with average grades and great letters of recommendation. now, i am completing an internship in medicine. i have been trying to find an advanced spot to continue in medicine. no matter how many programs contact with me initial interest; i am never offered a position, as presumably, it has been filled with another more qualified candidate. it seems like i have fallen through the cracks in the medical community, as no one wants to give me a chance, no matter how hard i have worked to overcome my past failures. this sucks. maybe a career in healthcare is not for me after all. "it's always darkest before the dawn". i am just wondering if dawn will ever come?