Wow, some people are really jaded. But plenty of people are happy with FM and enjoy it, and given the competitiveness of the match FM may become more competitive in coming years.
FM, and primary care in general, is vital to a good health care system. We need more good, smart, and caring PCPs, but unfortunately, it is not for everyone. It takes a special person to be good PCP. Someone who loves spending time with patients, and getting involved in their medico-social affairs. A people's person. A person who enjoys being a general health care servant. Unfortunately, that person is not me. Not even three INTENSIVE years of primary care residency was able to pressure me into loving the health care service.
It is very simple, I just do not like clinical medicine. In other words, I do not enjoy being a servant of health care. I am not going to fight it, and I refuse to do a job that I hate. I am not ready to compromize, not after spending all this time and money. After finishing residency, I refuse to practice clinical medicine....for my own sake and sanity. I am very (extremely) sad and deppressed because I am now in clinical medicine. Every single day is a living hell for me. Why should I put myself through this. I deserve better. I worked hard all my life, and this is what I get? It is not fair to see my friends, who barely finished undergraduate college, happy and doing something they love everyday....while I, who sacrificed 1/3 of my life AND my credit score, am miserable in a job that I hate, and cannot even tolerate. I want to be happy like them. I want to love my job. After all that hard work, I think I deserve at least that. I could care less about "prestige" or how much my salary is. I just want to be happy...or, AT LEAST, not sad.
Why do you say that you are a scientist? If you wanted to be a scientist then you should have gone PhD route....
Like i said many times before I made a huge mistake going to medical school. I like the medical sciences, not the first-hand service of health care. I thought "Medicine" was the science of human beings, and by going to medical school, I would be a "human being scientist". I was very wrong. Medicine is a profession, not a science. A Neurologist is a provider of neurological health care services, not a "brain scientist". A PhD in Neuroscience, on the other hand, IS a scientist of the brain and the nervous system. There is a BIG difference. One is a profession, with semi-rigid protocols, pathways, and standards of care that one must abide to, IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE SUED. The other is a "playgound" for ideas and imagination to unlock mistries of the unknown, and push the frontiers of human knowlegde. Going back to school for a PhD is one of my current options. But my worry is the financies, and the huge debt I have.
If you failed Step 2 CK, like you stated in a previous post, then why are you so gung-ho on the science part? (Just curious!)
Lets see;
-I like the medical sciences. The USMLE Step 1 is a test of the medical sciences. I pass step 1 comfortably on my 1st attempt.
-On the other hand, I hate clinical medicine. The USMLE Step 2 CK is a test of CLINICAL knowledge. I failed my 1st attempt on step 2 CK.
You do the "math"...
IM is super intellectual and there is a ton of science, maybe you picked the wrong specialty?
My friend, I picked the wrong profession. It is sad, but true. MD = Health care servant / Provider of health care service in the health care industry. That is just not me. I will not do clinical medicine after residency. It might be too late to turn back now, but I will not do something I hate just for the money.
Look, medicine is a noble profession...but you have to ENJOY being a humble servant to the sick customer of health care. When I am 80 years old, on the medicine ward, surrounded by my own smelly feces, I want my doctor to WANT to be in the room with me, and serve me the best health care he can service. If you are up for that, then welcome to medicine, and may GOD bless you. If the idea of serving old smelly sick people repulse you, then I do not want you near my bed.
We NEED good doctors who ENJOY and WANT to serve "grade A" health care. This maybe just right for you. I, on the other hand, do not enjoy being a servant of health care, and will not (refuse) to work in an industry that I do not like. I will take my chances, and do something I love instead. At least I will not be that "doctor" who starts huffing and puffing each time the ER calls, or a when he gets called to do consults at 3 am on weekends.
Good luck.