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So, i have spent much of the 2017 year preparing for the upcoming 2018 MCAT this January, but unfortunately this evening has me feeling hopeless. Here is my story:
I am 27 years old, and immediately after high school i went to college. I majored in biology with a minor in psychology. I had a rough relationship my junior year, and a bad break up that caught the best of me. I did very poorly in school, failing 3 classes. I changed my major to psychology in an attempt to save my GPA, but was for the most part unsuccessful in raising it. Unfortunately i only have a 2.22 cumulative undergraduate GPA. I ended up finishing my degree requirements, and moving back home with my mom. I have since been working as a waiter at restaurants full time.
I decided that i wanted to continue my education so i took a class, non-matriculated at stony brook university in NY. The class was CEB 553, biology and human behavior. I received an A in that course. The next semester i decided to go to my local community college, i took 4 classes matriculated towards an associates biology degree, even though i already kinda have the bachelors. 2 of the 4 classes i had already taken in an effort to replace the grades: chem 2 and physics 1. Both professors could barely speak English, let alone teach the courses, so i ended up dropping them, i just didn't see myself obtaining an A when the entire class was failing every exam, well below a 65, as the exams were departmentalized(made by the department chair, who was unreachable and didnt care that the all the classes taught by these professors were failing, badly). To me, struggling for a B in these entry level courses that i already received C's in didn't make any sense, so i withdrew and received 2 W's. My 2 other courses i received an A and B+ in respectively. Those courses i stuck with were anatomy and physiology and developmental psychology. Both had great professors, and were awesome classes for me to take. They inspired me to become a doctor, and since i have been preparing for the mcat exam. Until i tried to obtain my undergraduate degree, which i owed some money for, and learned i had only a 2.22 cumulative GPA.
So that is a total of 3 grades since my undergraduate 2.22 cumulative GPA.
1 CEB 553 =A
1 anp1 =B+
1 Developmental psych= A
I have spent the last 9 months making adjustments to my life and preparing for the mcat.
I have done quite a bit of studying, practicing passage based questions and teaching myself physics, organic chemistry, biochemistry, psychology.
I was considering doing a more formal post-Bach program at a private school, but because i have a 2.22 GPA undergrad i don't believe i can even apply as the minimum requirement is a 2.8 for the programs in the AAMC database.
I am feeling hopeless. Do i have any options? I feel as though all my mcat prep was a waste, because even with a high score i wont get into any desirable programs. Should i try to get a 2nd bachelors degree? and how long would that take? Should i try to take more classes at stony brook university? and if so undergrad, or in their non-matriculated SBD program (school of professional development.)
All of these mistakes i have made has given me a lot of time for introspection. For the last 10 years i have been a chronic marijuana smoker, and i cant help but blame these poor decisions and lack of performance on my addiction to that drug. I have since quit smoking, and have been living a clean life. I cook all of my meals, try to eat as little processed foods as possible, and organic as much as i can. I have been getting great sleep, all of this to get ready for life in medical school.
Life has shown me that i desire some actual fulfillment instead of getting stoned, and i have absolutely no desire to return to it. My mother has been diagnosed with MS, and watching her condition deteriorate has been probably the strongest driving force on my path towards medicine. The only thing i want to spend the rest of my life doing is trying to research and develop treatments for her, and people alike. I have decided and have had my heart set on medicine for about 2 years now. I cannot conceive of any other career to have other than becoming a doctor. I will do absolutely anything to achieve that dream. I cannot continue to go on living such an unfulfilling life. God has taught me that everything i thought i cared about was actually a huge distraction. If i had all the money in the world i would donate it to those in need, and my family so i could watch them enjoy it. We don't have an infinite time on this earth however, which is why the practice of medicine is for me. I need to become a physician, and my goal is patient care and or surgery. I cannot have a "no" as an answer, but i am feeling hopeless. I know there has to be some way i can make my dream a reality, which brings me here.
To anyone who has read this, i thank you for your time. I am so sorry to burden you even for these brief moments with my sob story. I have done this all to myself, and now i am in a terrible situation but making the strongest effort of my life to get out.
What can i do now? i refuse to believe that all this time has been wasted. I have to persevere and become a doctor. What would be the fastest and most effective way to go about getting into medical school? I have no distractions and a lot of time which i have been dedicating to my MCAT prep. All i do is work, study, and go to the gym daily to maintain a healthy body and mind.
Any advice is greatly and truly appreciated. Thank you!
I know I can do this.
I am 27 years old, and immediately after high school i went to college. I majored in biology with a minor in psychology. I had a rough relationship my junior year, and a bad break up that caught the best of me. I did very poorly in school, failing 3 classes. I changed my major to psychology in an attempt to save my GPA, but was for the most part unsuccessful in raising it. Unfortunately i only have a 2.22 cumulative undergraduate GPA. I ended up finishing my degree requirements, and moving back home with my mom. I have since been working as a waiter at restaurants full time.
I decided that i wanted to continue my education so i took a class, non-matriculated at stony brook university in NY. The class was CEB 553, biology and human behavior. I received an A in that course. The next semester i decided to go to my local community college, i took 4 classes matriculated towards an associates biology degree, even though i already kinda have the bachelors. 2 of the 4 classes i had already taken in an effort to replace the grades: chem 2 and physics 1. Both professors could barely speak English, let alone teach the courses, so i ended up dropping them, i just didn't see myself obtaining an A when the entire class was failing every exam, well below a 65, as the exams were departmentalized(made by the department chair, who was unreachable and didnt care that the all the classes taught by these professors were failing, badly). To me, struggling for a B in these entry level courses that i already received C's in didn't make any sense, so i withdrew and received 2 W's. My 2 other courses i received an A and B+ in respectively. Those courses i stuck with were anatomy and physiology and developmental psychology. Both had great professors, and were awesome classes for me to take. They inspired me to become a doctor, and since i have been preparing for the mcat exam. Until i tried to obtain my undergraduate degree, which i owed some money for, and learned i had only a 2.22 cumulative GPA.
So that is a total of 3 grades since my undergraduate 2.22 cumulative GPA.
1 CEB 553 =A
1 anp1 =B+
1 Developmental psych= A
I have spent the last 9 months making adjustments to my life and preparing for the mcat.
I have done quite a bit of studying, practicing passage based questions and teaching myself physics, organic chemistry, biochemistry, psychology.
I was considering doing a more formal post-Bach program at a private school, but because i have a 2.22 GPA undergrad i don't believe i can even apply as the minimum requirement is a 2.8 for the programs in the AAMC database.
I am feeling hopeless. Do i have any options? I feel as though all my mcat prep was a waste, because even with a high score i wont get into any desirable programs. Should i try to get a 2nd bachelors degree? and how long would that take? Should i try to take more classes at stony brook university? and if so undergrad, or in their non-matriculated SBD program (school of professional development.)
All of these mistakes i have made has given me a lot of time for introspection. For the last 10 years i have been a chronic marijuana smoker, and i cant help but blame these poor decisions and lack of performance on my addiction to that drug. I have since quit smoking, and have been living a clean life. I cook all of my meals, try to eat as little processed foods as possible, and organic as much as i can. I have been getting great sleep, all of this to get ready for life in medical school.
Life has shown me that i desire some actual fulfillment instead of getting stoned, and i have absolutely no desire to return to it. My mother has been diagnosed with MS, and watching her condition deteriorate has been probably the strongest driving force on my path towards medicine. The only thing i want to spend the rest of my life doing is trying to research and develop treatments for her, and people alike. I have decided and have had my heart set on medicine for about 2 years now. I cannot conceive of any other career to have other than becoming a doctor. I will do absolutely anything to achieve that dream. I cannot continue to go on living such an unfulfilling life. God has taught me that everything i thought i cared about was actually a huge distraction. If i had all the money in the world i would donate it to those in need, and my family so i could watch them enjoy it. We don't have an infinite time on this earth however, which is why the practice of medicine is for me. I need to become a physician, and my goal is patient care and or surgery. I cannot have a "no" as an answer, but i am feeling hopeless. I know there has to be some way i can make my dream a reality, which brings me here.
To anyone who has read this, i thank you for your time. I am so sorry to burden you even for these brief moments with my sob story. I have done this all to myself, and now i am in a terrible situation but making the strongest effort of my life to get out.
What can i do now? i refuse to believe that all this time has been wasted. I have to persevere and become a doctor. What would be the fastest and most effective way to go about getting into medical school? I have no distractions and a lot of time which i have been dedicating to my MCAT prep. All i do is work, study, and go to the gym daily to maintain a healthy body and mind.
Any advice is greatly and truly appreciated. Thank you!
I know I can do this.