i really hope that a strenuous application process has not caused the OP to suffer a psychotic break
collect your thoughts, man
I agree with the other posters-- your personal statement really does make you sound a bit unbalanced. Examples:
1) You alternately refer to yourself in the 3rd person and the 1st person. This makes you sound both grandiose and disjointed in thought
2) You write about your interest in "self-healing" in your attempt to enter a profession centered around the Doctor/Patient relationship. This makes you seem self-absorbed and uninterested in the founding principles of medicine.
3) You mention that you have already applied several times without success
and that you have been diagnosed with a mental illness. Just one of these would be a red flag-- both will be an automatic rejection.
4) You have incomplete sentence fragments laced throughout your personal statement as well as some very odd syntax. My English teacher would have given this an F.
5) Finally, but most importantly, these writings seem like the "racing thoughts" that are said to typify the manic portion of bipolar disorder. In all seriousness, I would suggest that you check in with yourself, your loved ones, and your therapist/physician to see whether you might be entering a manic phase. I suspect that if you could read these thoughts as we do, you also might raise an eyebrow with regard to the mental status of the author.
Good luck to you.