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This is mostly about the confusion that I'm going through, so hopefully this isn't a cliche topic (not too much that is). I'm a junior at undergrad now, done with all the pre-reqs, already took MCAT (will find the result in about a week), did some shadowing and volunteering in hospital, and got decent levels of extracurriculars. As everyone knows, since it's the junior year, there's already word about applying in the next summer (e.g. summer between junior and senior year).
I'm somewhat not so sure about the whole application process though. Like.. I'm not one of those people who chose to become pre-med because "I've always wanted to become a doctor since I was ** years old" (sorry for those who believe this way, but I just have somewhat dislike towards people who say that they want to be a doctor since like 8 years old). I chose to pursue medicine because I wanted to help people around me due to a personal event during a high school athletic game. So since then, I've just come forward, doing work necessary, and trying to do some research (nothing really firm to call a "research" though) to enhance my application. The idea of not pursuing medicine has never come to me seriously.
But recently, the issue of money has worried me. I guess that I'm not sure if I really have choice to pursue medicine. I mean, yes, I know that most medical students take loans, but my feeling is that they are usually from financially stable background. I'm not - I'm one of those students who was only able to go to college in first place because of strong academics and activities.
Lately, I've been thinking about pharmacology research, a PhD program that is. It ties up a lot of things I learned in pre-reqs and courses I'm taking now, and even though I won't actually get a research experience until next summer, I like the idea of knowing how drug can affect the body than just telling someone to take the drug because it's known to have certain effects. But more importantly, as in other grad school programs, if admitted, I'll receive funding to go and stipend to go along with it. Then once I graduate, I can work in a lab, a drug company, or even in academic settings.
I haven't even really discussed with anyone except one friend (who is also pre-med and applying), who gave me a funny look today that I'm considering research instead of medicine. This is why I'm posting on SDN - because I know that people around me are so hardcore driven medicine that if you choose to go something different, you are basically giving up medicine for an easier route and I don't want to hear that from everyone I see.
Am I just being crazy? I don't know... Even when I was studying for MCAT this summer, I felt like medicine was really for me. But when I actually got around the idea of applying and how scholarships are extremely rare in medical school levels (except for like MSTP which I am not obviously eligible), it feels like a reality check. There are many people who can become doctors in the world... but obviously not everyone can.. Right?
I'm somewhat not so sure about the whole application process though. Like.. I'm not one of those people who chose to become pre-med because "I've always wanted to become a doctor since I was ** years old" (sorry for those who believe this way, but I just have somewhat dislike towards people who say that they want to be a doctor since like 8 years old). I chose to pursue medicine because I wanted to help people around me due to a personal event during a high school athletic game. So since then, I've just come forward, doing work necessary, and trying to do some research (nothing really firm to call a "research" though) to enhance my application. The idea of not pursuing medicine has never come to me seriously.
But recently, the issue of money has worried me. I guess that I'm not sure if I really have choice to pursue medicine. I mean, yes, I know that most medical students take loans, but my feeling is that they are usually from financially stable background. I'm not - I'm one of those students who was only able to go to college in first place because of strong academics and activities.
Lately, I've been thinking about pharmacology research, a PhD program that is. It ties up a lot of things I learned in pre-reqs and courses I'm taking now, and even though I won't actually get a research experience until next summer, I like the idea of knowing how drug can affect the body than just telling someone to take the drug because it's known to have certain effects. But more importantly, as in other grad school programs, if admitted, I'll receive funding to go and stipend to go along with it. Then once I graduate, I can work in a lab, a drug company, or even in academic settings.
I haven't even really discussed with anyone except one friend (who is also pre-med and applying), who gave me a funny look today that I'm considering research instead of medicine. This is why I'm posting on SDN - because I know that people around me are so hardcore driven medicine that if you choose to go something different, you are basically giving up medicine for an easier route and I don't want to hear that from everyone I see.
Am I just being crazy? I don't know... Even when I was studying for MCAT this summer, I felt like medicine was really for me. But when I actually got around the idea of applying and how scholarships are extremely rare in medical school levels (except for like MSTP which I am not obviously eligible), it feels like a reality check. There are many people who can become doctors in the world... but obviously not everyone can.. Right?