I just finished my 3rd year and am finding myself in the predicament of choosing between medicine and surgery. I would love to hear any perspective anyone has on this! I had my medicine clerkship first, and I loved it I think mainly because it was the first clinical rotation and I just loved seeing patients instead of reading about them. I enjoyed rounds mainly because they helped me learn at the time, but I don't think I could enjoy rounding as much now. I also found outpatient internal medicine and family medicine really frustrating to not get alot "done" for the patients. Then, I had OB/GYN. I enjoyed the surgical aspect of it, and a little bit of the women's health aspect, but it was definitely NOT fitting with my personality. At the time, I was engaged to a surgeon, and I was hoping and praying that I wouldn't like surgery because I knew that we would have a rough life both being surgeons. Lo and behold, I ended up loving surgery! I would find myself waiting for the next day to come so that I could be in the OR. I loved the pre-op diagnostic process, the OR, and post-op management. Personality-wise, I enjoyed being around go-getters, and I also enjoyed their sense of being serious when it was necessary but also having a great sense of humor during downtime. I was uncomfortable a couple of times being a woman and when the male residents/attendings made comments about women, but in general, it just pushed me to work harder. My school is known to have an "easier" surgery rotation because our hours were around 5 AM - 6 PM, and only 4 24 hour calls in our 2 month rotation. So although I loved it, sometimes I am hesitant as to whether I can do it or not in terms of the hours. I mean I definitely didn't enjoy not sleeping much as most people wouldn't, but once I made it to the hospital, I didn't notice the tiredness at all. It's also very difficult to imagine how I would feel about working this hard 10 years down the road. Then, I did a rotation in ENT and GI because I wanted to give interventional specialties with better lifestyles a chance. In terms of ENT - small surgeries and nasal and ear surgeries are not for me, and I was told that it is too difficult to only do head and neck. I liked GI, but I don't want to ONLY do endoscopies/colonoscopies/ERCP/MRCP for the rest of my life. I want to be able to work with gross organs and my hands during interventions a lot more. I haven't done emergency medicine officially, but I have done some time in peds ED, and I think it may a bit too chaotic for me. I like to have just a little bit more control over what I will see every day. I've also thought about anesthesia - I haven't officially done a rotation, but I think I would miss being on the operative side of it. As soon as I had decided that surgery was for me and I was on my way to plan my career, my fiance basically broke up with me, and I think mainly because of this lifestyle and me being a surgeon issue. So now, it really scares me to choose this specialty where I feel like I will scare men away for not being the conventional woman willing to devote her time to family and life. I am not saying I am living my life for a man, but I would like to meet someone and have a family at some point, and I feel like most men don't want to be with strong, career-driven women. I feel like my decision to do GI versus Surgery stems down to do I want a family or do I want a career? That was long, but I would love any insight into this dilemma because I am at a major crossroads in my life and feel a little lost. Even any advice on specialities I haven't considered thoroughly including emergency med or anesthesia would be extremely helpful! Thanks in advance for any advice!