Hello all! I am doing a pathology elective as I prepare to apply for residency (in less than a month!). The other day I witnessed my 2nd autopsy. The first one I dealt with much better (middle aged patient who had been ill for awhile, so it was less of a tragedy). The second case was of a young man... Let's just cut to the chase. I know this is probably very unethical, but I looked him up on Facebook. And it's caused me some distress. Confirming what I already knew but still needed to see -- he was a real, living person. Not the corpse that we tore up to shreds. His security settings are pretty high so there wasn't much to see, but in many ways it was too much. It's just so sad! He didn't know he was going to die. So what I want to know... Is this like really disturbing? Or is this a reasonable emotional response for a rookie? I am going into pathology for many reasons, but not because I dislike patients. That's why I am a bit worried now, that I might always feel like there is a void. I am truly inspired by pathology's critical role in patient care, and how the field works to advance medical knowledge, but at the end of the day I have plenty of emotions and compassion. I just hope it doesn't go to waste. I feel like I can't discuss this with the attendings / other residents because I don't want to be seen as a creepy cyberstalker, and because the attending in charge just laughed her way through the case. Didn't really seem to acknowledge and respect the patient as much as I would hope and expect.