Hello, first I understand that the overwhelming majority of ppl on this site have not gone through my experience or understand what its like to be trans but I believe this is true for all of medicine anyways so I don't think it matters. Please don't suggest that I visit trans or LGBT spaces advice as I already tried and found no one.
So i'm a 22 year old trans woman who completed premed education with a bachelor's in biology with a 4.0 GPA and good extracurriculars and originally planned to apply to med school in the last 2 cycles but life happened and now I have no idea where to go. I live in Texas btw.
I started my gender transition in my senior year of university after a long battle of trying to cope with my dysphoria and finally managing to find a place to live on my own and fund my transition. As some of you may know, transition is a very long process and has very inconsistent results in terms of making someone "pass" as their desired gender.
At this time and for the forseeable future I cannot pass as a regular, cisgender woman due to my basic physical traits and so to many I am a unprofessional and disturbing outcast that is undesirable to employers and most other people. I have also reached a point however where even I try to intentionally "dress" male to hide the transness, people can still clock me as transgender or queer even if I try to present as I used to. As you can imagine this has caused me a ton of stress, anxiety, and depression and made me less than hopeful about my goal to be a doctor. I've already had so much trouble getting jobs despite getting tons of interviews to all sorts.....it almost never fails that I get rejected after the interview.
I have no intention of talking about being trans in the primary app or any application really but the problem is that as far as I see it, adcoms will figure out that i'm transgender whether I like it or not and will see how ugly and weird I am. I don't know if I should just apply for the next cycle and see how it goes or postpone another year and see if I can be more passing by then. At the same time my life is so ****ing depressing at the moment and I dont think i'm being productive at all with my gap years, I can hardly get out of bed most days and antidepressants don't help.
Does anyone have any advice? Any advice at all from someone LGBT?
Thanks
TL;DR: I'm a trans woman but I don't pass as a regular woman and people instantly know i'm trans upon seeing me. I have all the grades and a decent MCAT (510) but i'm depressed that all my med school prospects will be ruined the moment interviewers see me.
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So i'm a 22 year old trans woman who completed premed education with a bachelor's in biology with a 4.0 GPA and good extracurriculars and originally planned to apply to med school in the last 2 cycles but life happened and now I have no idea where to go. I live in Texas btw.
I started my gender transition in my senior year of university after a long battle of trying to cope with my dysphoria and finally managing to find a place to live on my own and fund my transition. As some of you may know, transition is a very long process and has very inconsistent results in terms of making someone "pass" as their desired gender.
At this time and for the forseeable future I cannot pass as a regular, cisgender woman due to my basic physical traits and so to many I am a unprofessional and disturbing outcast that is undesirable to employers and most other people. I have also reached a point however where even I try to intentionally "dress" male to hide the transness, people can still clock me as transgender or queer even if I try to present as I used to. As you can imagine this has caused me a ton of stress, anxiety, and depression and made me less than hopeful about my goal to be a doctor. I've already had so much trouble getting jobs despite getting tons of interviews to all sorts.....it almost never fails that I get rejected after the interview.
I have no intention of talking about being trans in the primary app or any application really but the problem is that as far as I see it, adcoms will figure out that i'm transgender whether I like it or not and will see how ugly and weird I am. I don't know if I should just apply for the next cycle and see how it goes or postpone another year and see if I can be more passing by then. At the same time my life is so ****ing depressing at the moment and I dont think i'm being productive at all with my gap years, I can hardly get out of bed most days and antidepressants don't help.
Does anyone have any advice? Any advice at all from someone LGBT?
Thanks
TL;DR: I'm a trans woman but I don't pass as a regular woman and people instantly know i'm trans upon seeing me. I have all the grades and a decent MCAT (510) but i'm depressed that all my med school prospects will be ruined the moment interviewers see me.
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