I feel extremely nervous about being back in school after so long. Attending a class with younger people with supple minds yet full of the youthful muscle that makes the exercise of studying so easy. My own mind is worn down by childbirth, life and age. I am not stupid....far from it; I personally believe I am intelligent enough to make it. I am also hard working and not as naive as I was the first time I went through college. SO why am I in a blind panic and doubting myself every inch of the way? This has been my dream for a long time...to be a doctor and a damn good one. Will I make it? Will I even enjoy it? Will my marriage survive it? Can I do Biology, Chemistry and the elusive calculus when I sometimes find myself having to do simple sums with my fingers like a first grade student? Sometimes I just feel too old. Am I making a mistake, wasting my time? So many things going through my mind. I know I have no option. If I don't make it, I will at least know I tried. But it is daunting to think of the road ahead. Years of studying and fighting to be what I want to be...what I always wanted to be! Well, here goes nothing!!!